Everything I Like About You

What is there not to admire

You are so angelic, so appealing to my eyes

Your crazy colored hair

Stuck up in designs that boggle the mind

And you smooth white skin

Pressed up against mine

How I yearn to stroke your cheek

As I kiss your forehead

I love to look in your deep dark eyes

They reflect the light of your soul so well

Taking your hand means everything to me

So gentle and delicate, like a fallen leaf

Your smile makes me smile and my heart laugh too

As it shows who you really are

Behind the black leather you put on each day

Your body is a wonderland and I want to play

Inside your secrete hideaways made from precious skin

But the real things that I like about you I can't explain

There is something so different about you

So deep and so beautiful

Loving you makes all my dreams come true

When you take me to a place I've never been before

Read this over and over again

And know that I like everything about you

There is nothing I would change

Nothing I would take away

For you are a gift from on high

Please don't ever leave my side

Let me touch your lips with my lips

And live in that moment forever

Frozen in time but not really caring

Because when we are together nothing else matters

Caught up in the stars now

How would you like to spend eternity together?

Loving you and you loving me is amazing

The Thought Crusader has met his match

In the form of Toxic Advil, the drug of everlasting love

I love you my sweet sweet one

This one goes out just for you, and no one else

Emotional Dollars

Spent up on you for the last time

You come to the account to draw more out

Drawing on something that has been empty

The cobwebs forms and the dust settles

There is no justice for those like me

Who have a friend so great like you

And then sit back and watch it fall away

Making me feel like shit isn't right

How can you say the things you say?

You've taken all I can give and ask for more

More more more there is nothing left to give

I don't ammount to the life you live

Now you try to change all that I am

So I may fit into your life, your masterplan

You don't accept me for who I am

I don't feel safe in your presence like I once did

And if you love me it's a perverted love

For if you really loved me you would take me

Now I begin to fall sideways

My world is spinning and it's all due to you

I never wanted to build these boundries

But I must, I must make these barriers

To keep you from stealing my life

Pulling the rug out from under my feet

The image remains of how we used to be

Nothing changed in me yet I see your jealousy

Is it because I new women came in that made you this way?

I'm so tired of spending all my emotional dollars on you

I have run dry and there is nothing coming in to fill it up

Friendship is a two way street

Both have to give to make it work

And my pockets are empty without your money

Now my eyes grow heavy as I think of you

Sucking me for all that I'm worth

You need to learn to love your neighbor as yourself

Love yourself friend, before you try to love me

But until then I have nothing to give, nothing to say

And if this is goodbye, I will still cry

Don't be the one that pushes you away from me

Just stop and look at how your life affects mine

So be expecting a phone call that tells you all these things

Hold back the rage if you can and let me in

My friend, don't make this harder then it already is

Haste The Day-When Everything Falls

I can see it comin' on the horizon
Sky turning black, it's raining down
Can't move my feet, cannot be shaken
Not movin',
I'm standing strong
I'm standing firm
I can't be moved
I'm standing so firm
I can't be moved
I will stand
I will stand
When everything falls away
I will fight this war forever
Or until I die
I will stand
I will stand
When everything falls away
I will fight this war forever
Or until I die
All these things coming against me
I have the choice to fall or fight
I cannot be moved
You give me the strength
Help me fight, help me fight
I'm standing so firm
I can't be moved
I'm standing so firm
I can't be moved
I will stand
I will stand
When everything falls away
I will fight this war forever
Or until I die
I will stand
I will stand
When everything falls away
I will fight this war forever
Or until I die
And I'm standing so firm
On this ground you've sat before me
I'll fight for this with my last breath
I'll fight for this till I die
I can't be moved

I Wish To Kill The Wounded

Fucking weak ass men without spines

How dare you talk crap on the ones I love

She left you for something better

And that something better is me

How the fuck could you be like this asshole

Just fucking grow up and let her go

She's mine now bastard and you won't have her

So don't go taking your problems to others

Who don't need to get fucking involved

Cry your tears where no one can see

And keep your fucking mouth shut

Goddamn you I wish for you to burn

Motherfucker thinking you're so tough

With your fake ass clothes that tell others you hate yourself

Just a punk ass bitch for all know

All I ever see is you being a child

Well I wish to chop off your fucking head

To skin you alive and pour salt on your wounds

Cut off your fingers and toes inches at a time

Setting you on fire and restarting the flames

Over and over and over again

To watch you go back to nothing where you came from

Fucking bastard I fucking hate you

I wish to kill you, you little fucking bitch

Not even worthy to be called a man

You're just a fucking loser like all the rest of them

You think that dark shit you wears scares me?

I'll fucking end you and it won't be like anything

The world will go on as if nothing happened

Scream for me to stop as it only urges me on

Slaying you where you stand would be a dream come true

And the truth of it is that you reap what you sow

Once a motherfucker always a motherfucker

Now the guns will fire and the knives plunged deep

Waiting for all the blood to drain to see you fall and die

Dig your grave before I put the bullet into your brain

You were faithful in nothing so you will be in death

Nothing, alone in the dark with no help coming

I am your help for sending you to an early funeral

No tears from my eyes will fall

Only a smile will appear as I have what is rightfully mine

Ignite the fire inside me anymore and my eyes will burn

You have lost your soul for I hold it now

Not able to get over what was never yours to start with

Fuck you bitch, coming at me with your fucking lies

But wait until the truth comes out, then you will really be hurt

I will have your head on a spike and your heart on a plate

Keep up with your fucking shit and it will be so

Leave now in peace and it will all end for you

Or step up like a man so you can fall like a fucking coward

I fucking own you bitch and there is nothing you can do

You wounded little lamb, here I come to sever your head

Hear the blade being sharpened?

It won't be a quick death, I want to watch you suffer

Rapping you with a shovel I'll knock all your fucking teeth out

Tieing your dick in a knot and ripping your balls off

This I know will make you scream and the joy I know it will bring

Makes me feel like the monster I always wanted to be

Here I come motherfucker, better watch your fucking back

Hard Times Hit Us All

We fall down to rise again

Sucking on the tit of self pitty

Our eyes cry tears made of ash

Blood turns sour in our veins

As we crawl to the safety of falling stars

Inside the mouths of hungry beasts now

The world feels so much safer with claws in us

Deconstruction of the human mind begins

A lesson in violence is learned

Taught by masters in the art of death

Terror strikes and we fall silent

Lost to the voices inside our heads

Anguish takes hold and we wither

Back to the dust we came from

Mountains fall on our heads

As we call them to crush our shame

To hide us from what we hate most

Those little black marks on our record

The hatred we hold for ourselves

Beating the tyrant to a pulp

When will you pick up the ax and swing?

Knocking down the ruthless and the evil

Don't cry when you get hit

Just hit back twice as hard in hopes to kill

Maim your enemies and destroy their souls

End all the hard times that seem to hit us all

Speak to me of truth and justice

And I will speak to you of judgment and wrath

Fire from the sky followed with boils and plagues

Slapping me with your tongue of treachery

I will remove your forked tongue of wretched lies

With rusty knives I will cut it off

Throwing it into the fire with all the unneeded branches

Slashed from the vine you are worthless

All because you wouldn't put yourself back on

It's your fault that your life is falling down like this

So don't blame me, look at yourself

Times get hard for everyone, but not everyone is crying

Some like me will take a stand and fight back

The age of the coward is gone forever

Grow and backbone and stiffen up

Prepare to throwdown and cast out the weak

Fear does not exsist, only when you make it

Get ready to kill, steal, and destroy

Hard times are coming, don't be left with nothing

It's My Burden To Bleed To Fill Your Heart

Recover from one wound to gain another

Lost to the glaze of their frozen faces

What do I have to gain from this dying life?

Is there anything really worth living for?

And then I look at you and know I'm right

You save me when others throw me out

My love, I would die for you alone

Even when I bleed out I still live in you

Causing me to walk on amongst the mess

I know that one day I will be in your arms

Never letting go, never fadding away

For your love I will do all things

Even if it means I don't get to be yours

I would still give it all away

Just to know that you would be okay

More then just a lover and more then just a friend

You are the reason that I have to breath

My heart belongs to you alone

And at your word my soul leaps for joy

In your darkness there is the greatest light

Having me as yours means more then I ever thought

Filling your heart over and over again

Full till it overflows and the sadness is washed out

If by blood I must clean you I will

Pouring out my whole self for you

The tears I have aren't those of sorrow

You are everything and more, what more could I ask for

Unearth the lost child of my soul

And let him gaze into you eyes for a night

Healing the broken parts of me

The parts I thought could never be loved

You know more of me then any other

For you are my shinning star, the song of my heart

Over and over I will make your wrongs right

Fighting an endless war just for you to smile once

Never wanting to see you downcast

I will lift you up to the highest peak

So you may see the world and know that it is yours

I will give it all to you just for you to touch me once

The greatest moment of my life is when you first loved me

Dying right there I could have said I was complete

You are my special gift from on high

A blessing wrapped in black leather and metal chains

So unlike the rest of the world I know

I love you so much, don't ever go away

Built On Rage

Spit on me one more time motherfucker

Make it so I hate you for real this time

Breaking my heart everytime you say

It's not real anymore, it was never real

What the fuck do you know bitch

How do you know who the fuck I am

Motherfucker you have more problems then you know

I was the only one to ever help you out

And yet you act like that shit means nothing

Well fuck you then I don't need you

Friendships that turn sour aren't needed

Built on rage I write this to you

One too many times you talked down to me

And when I try to open up

You say that you don't like my tone

Who gave you the right to fucking talk to me like that

There is nothing you can do now

Chances only come a few at a time

Running low on them now what will you do when I'm gone?

Who will you go to with all your chaos?

No one will want to listen as you cry your life away

I was the only one and your trying to throw it out

Bastard child you call this judgment on yourself

An act of you own hand you force wrath from my lips

I tried to be gentle

I tried to make it easy for you

Lifting some of your burdens

Then you look in my eyes and say it was built on lust

Bitch you don't have the slightest idea of what I could have done to you

With my hand, with my lips, with my tongue, with my heart

I could have made you a star and then turned your lights out

Making your candle smolder and smoke forever

The flame would be gone and once again you would be lost

If it wasn't for me you'd be dead right now

Saving your life, doesn't that amount to anything?

What about the things I want

Friendship is a two way street, and did I get anything in return?

Draining me for all I am, you give a little when I gave my all

Fuck you if you think that's gonna fucking fly with me

This is how hatred is born, created out of your wickedness

Maybe she was right in telling me to watch out

I should have listen to the wisdom of the old

Correct in saying that you were fucking trouble

And it all is due to you, the madness you make for yourself

Listen the song of my heart as I now cry out

Hold me when I need it and be there when I break

Never ever were you that person for me

So you begin to blame me for not coming around

Am I susposed to stop the world and run to you?

You wished upon a dying star that I would have a life

And now that I do you fucking hate it

Because your life isn't even worth a sack of shit

Heal yourself my great physician

Look at the irony and wonder aloud

I've got someone better then you anyway you washed up whore

I guess saving you from yourself didn't matter anyway

I waisted my time and life restoring the blooded dead

So when you ask what is there for me

I will reply what was ever there for me

Bitch I could strike you down with the fury of lightening bolts

Burning you alive for what you did to me

Is this my lot in life, to lose the ones I love over stupid shit?

Fuck life then, let me live alone

My God My God I could skin you alive

Making me feel like nothing was your biggest mistake

Honestly I can say that I fucking hate you

The rage is overcoming me and it will be your end

Story Of The Year-Anthem Of Our Dying Days

The stars will cry
The blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
And here I am
Pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly
Exactly what I need

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face
If you were here
I swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never
Never have before

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying!!!

For a second I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
And you gasp for air tonight!!

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day

From up here the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem
Of our dying day
Our dying day
Of our dying!!!

Remind Me To Kill You

Jumping up and down with a crazy look in your eye

Stalking like a lion on the prowl

Open your eyes to the truth and step out

There is an enemy out there who wants you

Nothing more and nothing less then your soul

So remind me to kill you

For this beast among men is me

Crawling on claws and feet

After your weak heart, the soft spot

Hungry for blood and so much more

Cry out now for the mountains to fall on you

Watch now as death evades you except by one

My hand that holds the royal scepter of pain

Swiftly falling down on your head

Make a new day out of the blood of my victims

Paint the sun red with the entrails of the dead

Look to me now as the one true king

With the power to give life and to take it away

Enemy, lay for me now slain on the battlefield

Remember the times gone past when we faced

How I struck you down then and yet here we are again

The cause of my anger, the purpose of my soul

To devour your very being, and destroy you at whole

Fire burns inside my gut for your flesh

Consuming you with every breath that I take

Hatred is the best fuel for any flame in life

And it keeps pouring on

Dying will be your greatest adventure

Now sheth your sword as I take off your head

Inspired By The Sickness

Souls and lost memories are all that remain

After the fire dies down

The post text to a race that has vanished

Gone from the face of the earth

Cold winds came in to blow them away

Shivering under the millstones you pile on

Trying to hide your infection

In no time the internal bleeding comes forth

Pulsing through the skin with heart beats undone

The vocal chords of mankind have been stripped

And only the silence screams back

Sores form on the mouths of the wicked breed

As liprosy takes hold and limbs fall to ash

Reach for the sky and make a new age martyr

This sickness is pouring more darkness into the world

A place where light so rearly shines anyway

Stick a needle into the arm of every child

Pumping the poison direct to watch them wither

Saving time now, the extiction is at hand

One gas champer is full

Watch as the other reach capacity just as fast

Creating skin like winter

Dust returns to dust

Hords of the undead come stumbling in

But as we view their eyes we wake up to find a new thought

That these are really ours, we are them

Exchanging blessings for curses

We fall under the spell of the shadow realm

All have died and will never come back

Murdered by the least expected hand, ourselves

Mudvayne-Happy?

In this hole
That is me
The dead are rolling over
In this hole
Thickening
Dirt shoveled over shoulders

I feel it in me
So overwhelmed
Oh this pressured center rising
My life over turned
Unfair the despair
All these scars keep ripping open

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

In this hole
That is me
A life that's growing feeble
In this hole
So limiting
The sun has set all darkness

Buried underneath
Hands slip off the wheel
Internal pathway to contention

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

Are you
HAPPY

Are you
HAPPY

Are you feeling happy?

In this hole
That is me
Left with a heart exhausted
Whats my release?
What sets me free?
Do you pull me up just to push me down again?

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?

Peel me from the skin
(peel me from the skin)
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
(Tear meat from the bone)
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost left with nothing

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost left with nothing?

Pantera-Cemetery Gates

Reverend reverend is this some conspiracy?
Crucified for no sins
An image beneath me
Whats within our plans for life
It all seems so unreal
I'm a man couldn't have feel this world
Left in my misery...

The reverend he turned to me
Without a tear in his eyesI
t's nothing new for him to see
I didn't ask him why
I will remember
The love our souls had
Sworn to make
Now I watch the falling rain
All my mind can see
Now is your (face)

Well I guess
You took my youth
I gave it all away
Like the birth of aNew-found joy
This love would end in rage
And when she died
I couldn't cry
The pride within my soul
You left me incomplete
Memories now unfold.

Believe the word
I will unlock my door
And pass the
Cemetery gates

Sometimes when I'm alone
I wonder aloud
If you're watching over me
Some place far abound
I must reverse my life
I can't live in the past
Then set my soul free
Belong to me at last

Through all those
Complex years
I thought I was aloneI didn't care to look around
And make this world my own
And when she diedI should've cried and spared myself some pain...
Left me incomplete
All alone as the memories still remain

The way we were
The chance to save my soul
And my concern is now in vain
Believe the word
I will unlock my door
And pass the cemetery gates

Mastermind

They don't call me Thought Crusader for no reason

I trod on the blood soaked ground

Casting about my victory wherever it may land

Now as I ride on and see

One lyrical genius slay another

A true masterpiece is made with havoc in the mix

Unearth for me now the true meaning of life

Take the truth of the world out of the box

Unified with all creation about what living is all about

But you will never know the things I know

Never will you see the things I have seen

For a plan to take back the reigns of peace

Has been put in place by a man of war

Free us from this cage we call flesh

Living the human life has lost all luster

Gaining only new hardships for jobs well done

Decaying on the front door step is a child

Wrapped in rags and left with a note

This is the bringer of justice to all the world

Raise him in poverity and humility

So that one day he will be able to touch all

One voice crying out in the wilderness

Naked except for the tuxedo he wears

Lying through his teeth as anger takes hold

The soul of a dragon he holds inside

Now as we see that the omen was right

Men speaking in the desert are born of jackals

Such a difference from the boy covered in black ash

Concieved of righteousness and the upright hand of judgment

Suffocating all enemies one for glory and one for vengence

The mastermind of it all must be laughing now

As the game he created is overtaking everything

Yet no one sees it

No one understands the meaning of it all

Nothing so hard as to push you to bloodshed

Just open your heart and mind and take it in

Violence begets violence and lust only lust

Sin breeds more sin and pain multiplies without end

Uproot the tree that bears that fruit of caution

For we must throw that to the wind

And hope that the seeds take up root elsewhere

Be wise now my gentle dove and listen here

A war is coming and it will be our end

Eternal armies marching on both side

Armor placed just right and swords flashing in the sun

This was all drawn up from the beginning

That we must be shattered to truely come alive

Ill Nino-Te Amo...I Hate You

Te amo... I hate you
Te amo and I hate you
Te amo... I hate you
You always think that you are right

Everything you ever promised to not do you did
You fucked me up so just admit it
You are just another bitch and I know that you did it
How could you let us split in two

I was just another game so fuck you
There is nothing I could do
You're so tough, so bad, so cold
But now you eat your words

Don't try
Telling all your fucking lies
'Cause I
Make you eat your words and die
Don't try
Telling all your fucking lies
'Cause I
Make you eat your words and die

Think you're better but I know that you will never get it
This page will turn and you'll regret it
Everything you ever promised to not do you did
How could you let us split in two

Bury Your Dead-Magnolia

Abuse your body but you call it love.
I hear the stories; the bruises speak for themselves.
You think we're blind just because we are young.
I'm old enough to know now that my age made dumb.
I should have yelled and forced someone to hear those things we thought were better left unsaid.
Is now too late?
It dominates my head.
Those things we thought were better left unsaid.
I could not choose a way.
A choice that wasn't mine to make.
Just make him go away.
But if you're happy then I'm glad you found him.
God, please help her find her way.
A choice that wasn't mine to make.
Just make him go away.
Will she be happy when she finally finds herself?
Does she know she has our help?
Why do I ever bother?
We left hose things unsaid.
It hurts to talk but I'm starting to wish I did.
We left those things unsaid.
They hurt to hear.
Why do I bother?
Some things are better off left unsaid.

It Dies Today-A Threnody For Modern Romance

Alas, here is your serenade my darling
That leaves you speechless and weak.
May it teach you how to feel,
May it remedy your heartlessness,
And may your cries not interrupt this swansong.

[chorus:] This is a call to arms
For all those who recognize romance as,
As a dying scene, who'll take it to their graves;
This is a call to arms
For all who hold this sacrament close,
May our hearts burn on.
[/chorus]

How dare you weep,
For it's insincerity that trickles down your face.
Alas, here is your serenade my darling.
And oh, what a long time coming it has been.
This cruel lullaby that shall plague your dreams
And carry me towards revolution.

[chorus]
I'll sing for you the threnody of modern romance.
[chorus]

Paint It Black And Red

Running rampid on the town

Watching the flames dance

Calling down destruction

All shall perish in the fire and smoke

Chared bodies are all that is left

Surreal images take shape in reality

Demonic possession is the new days fad

Black eyes are covered by blacker hair

Unknown words form on the tongues of those

Who engage in the acts of spirits

Howling at the moon

Blood pours from their lips

So much darkness, so much horror

Pain has become the fashion we all wear

An internal struggle that we can't win

Overcoming by being overcome with anguish

Paint this town red and don't forget the shade

Dead mans black used for the outlinning

Unable to understand what it all means

I am trying to get a grasp on this

How people could build this terror filled world

And live in it without a care in the world

The king is dead who once walked in the sky

Remorse has passed into the history books

Which will never be read by these spoiled children

Our past has truely past and will never come back

Chocking on my former dreams

No one even wants to wake up from this nightmare

They don't see that it's killing us all

This undertone of unending darkness

Light a candle and place it on the mantel

Say a prayer and pray again that it is heard

Supernaturally is the only way we will be saved

Caught in the biggest of webs, there is no getting away

As fangs are plunged deep into our flesh

They go past the bone and straight to the soul

Crying tears of pitty is useless now

We've created this city and built the walls too high

Never able to climb out we begin to rot

Make the best of it now you heathen breed

Everything is hopeless now, for even the sun is black

Corset Of Piercings And Leather

Tied up the side of the torso

Locked by rings and chains

Hooked into the flesh so deep

That even the blood can't get out

There are some really odd things

Things that I never even thought about

Is it that you must find a new shock?

Or that the regular is not good enough?

Caught in a black veil

The darkness looks so appealing

As I turn and gaze the light falling back

Receding into the cracks of the ocean

Turning the water black

And causing ash to come about

You make something so painful so beautiful

Causing me to think twice

Eyes that look like glass call me by name

Lips red like the sun of the dead

Dawning a new day of vampire like lust

Wanting it so badly and not knowing why

A new breed of sin is born and placed in our hearts

Exotic things cry out and hold us tight

Singing a new song, so sad and yet so calm

Black eyeliner so thick the whites vanish

Oblivion rises from the earth

And we are caught in the act

Pants down and shame exposed to all

As the corset is ripped from your side

Unable now to scream out

The spreading disease is infecting the world

Looking for a new host on the hour

No one understands this fetish of the soul

That those who cannot speak suddenly can't hold their tongues

Hanging by the dead mans noose

Surfacing now is the monster from the black lagon

Chimera's and medusa's become our faces

Locking eyes with the souls of the chosen

Angels fall to the ground with their wings on fire

Apocolytic signs form all around

As the selected are placed in the great winepress of wrath

Sex, drugs, and rock'n'roll take hold of the land

Perverting the minds of all the worlds young

Inventing new ways of sinning now

Is this the end that we all wished to see?

Freaky versions of things we killed off long ago

New age phenomenon's begin to out live the old

What are we all coming to, to think of things like this?

Brimstone now falls from the burning sky

I must make it, we must make it

In order that we can tell the next generation

Don't walk down the same path that brings about hardships

Building A Better Me

This new image I begin to see

Unfolds before me now

Like a reoccurring dream

Over and over the same positive results

Causing the forrest to blossom

And the trees to bear new fruit

Confidences comes to replace

The once broken thought pattern

Now I'm learning that I'm something

Finding out that I am worthy

Picturing a new life for myself

Where I'm not living on the D list

A place where if I'm not wanted it's their loss

Or if I'm not perfect I'm still ok

Such a jump in optimism it's scary

I'm relearning how to live all over again

Craving that the curve would have always been

Looking back and thinking

This is how I should have been living

No one told me until I asked

All were silent until I spoke to the darkness

Calling on the day to vanquish the night

I am something special and no one can take that

My fears have been put to rest

Now that the better me has been found

Removing the mask letting my smile out

Finding love now, even within myself

Joy has been placed in a spot I had forgotten about

Breaking the mold now, the entity in me comes out

King of the nations and above all my life

It's looking good to be me

And I'm beginning to fall in love with myself

Not to be haughty and let it go to my head

But to show that I deserve the best

Just because I'm a person the draws breath

My Fears Have Become My Phobias

Staying away from the mirrors

I wish not to see myself

Wondering why it is that I hate myself

Every picture of me is full of imperfections

There is one that loves me

And I sit and wonder how this could be

I'm full of every wrong thing

Yet she is still there to see me through

Unafraid of the blackness I hold inside

She's addicted to me and I can't understand

When there are so many better fish in the sea

That she could just stop and pick me

What makes me so great

What makes me stand out

In my mind I see nothing

Though others see something magnificent

Now my poetic mind begins to stop

As your beauty makes me tongued tied

And the fear I hold of losing you

Has become my unknown phobia

This terror overtakes me and I stop breathing

Silently dying I begin to burn

I can't stand anything about me

How is it that you can love me?

The world now crashes around me

Will I ever be free to love just me?

Something tells me yes and something says no

Tell me how I must feel

Tell me how it is I make you feel

For if I understand my effect of others

Maybe I can pass some over to me

But I'm tired of being alone and afraid

As letting go is so hard, even with all I am I want to say goodbye

O what is this life of mine coming to?

Lost in a world where I'm the one without hope

The exhorter made to be a victim in a world of servants

There will always be some dead body connected to me

Yet my blessed among women remains

Why is it that you don't want to run away?

My flesh smells of decay, can't you see me rotting?

This is making my head spin and I don't know the reason why

Reality and fear seem to now be mixing

As ghostly images pass from my eyes to the earth

Can you just stop and read my mind

Tell me exactly what it is I need to hear

I wish to no longer suffer this way

Someone come and heal me, someone take the pain

What Do I See Myself To Be

Filled to the brim of the bucket

Overflowing with hatred inside

Black fires burn inside my eyes

Is this reality or my true state of mind?

What am I, is it who I see,

Looking back at me in the cloudy mirror

Black seeds of terror grow to combine

With the sighs I exhale from my dying womb

Webs of broken spirits form deep inside

And I cry out with a tongue made of dust

I see myself to be weak and unworthy

Knowing that others would speak otherwise

Unbelieving words are all that enter my ears

My darkest hour has approached

As the iceangel comes to take me by hand

Leading me on to eternal hell fire

This is all I see myself worthy of finding

Waking up to more bad dreams

The reflection is of me only worthy of dying

Ugly beyond words I let it all sink in
For no one told me I was special

And no one saw any characteristic worth mention

I was made to live with a dead weight tide to my neck

Flattered now by the words of strangers

Making me look back and think

Who is it that I really see?

What do I see myself to truely be?

My poor broken wings must expand and learn to fly

Away from this white washed life

Where everything looks great on the outside

Except to my eyes that are locked on the inside flaws

Allow me to line up the world and ask them

Am I beautiful, am I worth a second look back?

You make the decision and I'll make it my own

Is this right, to go about viewing myself like this?

The only way I know how, to judge me on others standards

Can I just be for a day content with myself?

To have the esteem to carry my head on high?

Will my heart ever be opened to the new truth of others,

That I am worth it, and good looking at that?

How is that appreneces mean so much to me,

When I never thought I was worth a fucking damn?

I must learn to see myself in a new light

Taking the things I like and making them mine

But in time will all these things come about

And until then I will sit and wait and wonder

How it is I see myself

Bleeding Through-Revenge I Seek

Fuck your world and fuck your kind
Go fuck yourself
You're fucking barely alive
I used to think of what you meant to me
I think of you every fucking day
Why the fuck did i let you into my heart
Now where do i begin
Today is my last fucking chance
Erase it all and kill my past
Fuck what we fucking said
The memories dont mean shit
Dont give a fuck about what you'll say
The memories dont mean shit, anymore
You're societys whore
Anymore
I'll walk through this wasteland before I'll ever fucking hold your hand again
I'll burn forever before I ever fucking see your face again, in hell
Anymore
And you're societys whore
Anymore,
Motherfucker, and that's fucking right
Fuck you forever
I'll despise you for the rest of these days
Fuck you forever
I'll fucking hate you for the rest of my life
Why the fuck did I let you into my heart
Now where do I begin
Today is my last fucking chance
Erase it all and kill my past
Fuck what we fucking said
The memories dont mean shit
Dont give a fuck about what you'll say
The memories dont mean shit,
Anymore
Youre societys whore
Anymore
Revenge I seek

The Girl Of My Dreams Wrote This

You've become so addicting,
My new drug, my new love
Better than any high I've ever felt
Your love, so addicting.

Sitting, staring into nothing, dreaming
Constant moments spent thinking of your angelic beauty
Moments of happiness from your everlasting love
Moments of sorrow from our distance
But always knowing, someday, we'll be

Street Medicine

Bearing down on the weakness of the fallen

Struggling to breath will I get out of this

Sunken eyes stare back from shallow graves

As the dead rise to overtake the living

This is life through struggle

Where we all walk on pins and needles to please

A phantom pain inside our hearts

Street lights twinkle in the night air

A cure is formed from dirt and disease

Kill the offender before they kill you

Survival of the fittest you must be renewed

Throw out the deception and hold true to fate

There is a life out there waiting for you

All you must do is wake up and grab it

Fire shadows bounce back on broken glass

As smoke fills the air we partake in the dragons breath

Suffering under the weight of the sin we all hold

How hard is it to give up that which we do not own?

Die or be the man that makes you die

Sleep with a knife in your pocket and a gun in your hand

Puritans have long since gone

We are all masochists in a sadistic world

Trapped under the boulders of past failures

The blood now fills the streets like the prophecies of old

Doom and torment are the everyday affairs

In this land where husband burn their wives

And children stone their parents for showing them they're wrong

Bastard halfbreeds roam with no remorse

Without shame they do not cover the distastable things

Clinging to anything that they think will bring power

The word on the street is that all the weak have vanished

Fix me doctor so that I may go on living

In the rundown piece of shit house I call home

Lavendor walls and scented candels are all set up

But what lies under the rug is a puddle of blood

Slay the innocent and bring back the wicked dead

Just another day in the life of demonic child

So much like the life I lived before

Bring about my cure and end another hated life

Dashboard Confessionals

Sitting along as the road passes by

Writing down forgotten memories

At the speed of 85

Driving myself crazy without

The one I love in my arms

Putting back the seat I close my eyes

Dreaming the same old dream

Yet everytime I dream it's new

I'm going now to get you

And I never want to go home

Not without you, the song of my soul

Spilling it all out, the truth is revealed

Printing in the dust of my window

"I heart You"

Placing the names on everything I see

You never seem to escape me

And I would die for you

Giving to you my whole life

For you gave me something special

As I look down in my china closet and see

A heart made of the most precious stone

Soft like a puppy yet hard as iron ore

It is the greatest gift I could ever have

Don't ever get away

Because I love you so so much

We were made for this

Love letters written by flickering candle light

Tears of joy stain the page

As the ink from the pin slips

And slids accross the world of your flowing hair

Locked in my mind, it's beyond all I know

Maybe they were right about Karma

I gave and gave time and again

And finally it returns in the package of your embrace

Now I have something worth looking for

For purpose has returned to my life

I know this isn't the Cadillac of love songs

But if I can at least make a Honda it's a job well done

Because all I care about is that you know

That I love you so much sweetheart

You are my love and joy

Gothic Girls And Hardcore Boys

Painted faces go undrawn in the middle of the night

With a song that is sang straight from the heart

Beauty is found in places that seem so strange

But to me you're so perfect like an unseen jewel

Uncovered for the first time my heart melts away

As you look at me and say what's on your mind

And all the world falls away as we sway with the breeze

I hope that this never ends like all the other ones

Marked by tears and kisses

I've found something that I didn't even know I was looking for

A new love formed from a bond of delicate finger tips

Showing me yourself and not afraid to shine

My only prayer now is that you would grow up

So we could get together in holy matrimoney

Only in a world built on harmony

Does a little gothic girl smile at a little hardcore boy

Painted eyes and cameo pants walking on the same path

Caught up in the black of eachothers tee-shirts

Let me hold you in my arms forever

And let our differences pass on to another time and place

Sometimes I think that you are crazy

For taking on a man that can hardle hold his own

Calling the situation perfect everytime you blow a kiss my way

Laughing at my dumb jokes just because I told one

Falling in love with me each time I look your way

And it's the same thing for me, every day and night

I'm sworn to keeping you and my goodness I love this

Only in a world where true love shines through

Could a couple of weird scene kids from two different acts

Be together for all to see, some to laugh and some to say gross

But who cares what the world thinks

We both seem to think that we aren't from this place anyway

This is just one of a million poems that I will give to you

My precious diamond among bush's made of throns

Please hold me forever for I never want to go away

I can't wait to see you, maybe sometime this week

Come home to me my beautiful baby girl

I'll swear of my broken life that I will love you for all time

Sow now a new seed of living water into my soul

And we'll drink from it togther, hand in hand

Two spirits that are so different yet meant to be, one

Perception Of The Broken Mind

Two whores lost to their ways

Fucked over time and again

Leaving no trace of blood

One with a disease of the flesh

And the other a contagion of the soul

Both lost to bloodloss and flames

Consumed in their hatred

One shows it on the sleeve

While the other hides it in the eyes

Wrong in so many ways

Yet the blame game is played for all to see

This is what you get with wickedness

Fucked up lives with all the turmoil you can get

Recieve the free gift of salvation

By the renewing of you distorted minds

Reach out and grab the ropes of freedom

Before the doom around you sucks you dry

Look to the sky and see that there is no fire

But it will soon come if you keep on denying

Trying so hard to run from the fact of your sins

You both need a change, now is when enemies become friends

Embrace the hope that you have another chance

Though time runs short it's time to make a change

One sees one way and the other another way

Yet it still remains that you both are dead souls walking

Repent and spread the word of forgivness

Reveil who you really are by letting your true heart shine

Stop living in these fucked up lives and act right

Grow to your true age and put on a new life

Keep your legs closed for this reason alone

That one dog cannot yell rape

And the other dog cannot be caught in a lie

Through perception we will all fall down

A reminder to you the next time you think of fucking up

Rest in the peace that there is a way out

Follow my voice and my touch and I'll lead you on

Past the places the world wants you to wait

And into the promised land of milk and honey

Let the boy teach the man how to live and love

For out of the mouths of babes will reality come about

Broken minds need healing and now is the time to mend

Close your eyes and rest your heads

While giving it all up, this life you both hate

Suffokate-The Skies Were Filled With Fire

end your life-embraced by the flames
when will the bloodshed ever end
millions will die as this plauge unfolds
you'll be marched face to face-the battle has began
a war of angels searching for souls- that they will never own
blood will flow threw the streets-theres fires all around
this will be the end
millons will be crused by your ways-your greed your jealous
the heavens fade away
in the time where all gods die-as you pray for truth inside of are embrace
this will be over soon
the screams of misery-a thousand condemed souls
cut my throat and walk away
i bring this plauge forth-as a warning sign for you
we will watch the heavens fucking burn
will watch it burn-as darkness nears all hope is lost
embraced with broken arms that will never catch you
we all know that this will be the end
embraced with broken arms that will never catch you
we all know that this will be the endthis will be extinction
from white to red i will paint your heavens
from white to red i will paint your land
the skies were filled with fire- all hope had been lost
all hope is lost

The Tattoo Of Caine

Infidel, so haughty in your ignorant ways

Do you not see the love that is there for you

Created by the spilling of fated blood

Glorify for me now what is in you that is so great

Watch closely as no light shines through the haze

Wake up and realize that your life is a mess

A tangle of heartache and bloodloss

You don't even know that you are the one dying

Giving over to your desires of the flesh

Your eyes point to evil and you take it all in

Like a house full of thieves, you do the waltz of the blind

Letting madness run loss in your heart

All that is good within your soul is passing away in sickness

In health you started and grew tired of the game

Passing the righteous path for one of shame

It all feels good for a little while until you begin to pass away

Just when the disease hits the inside the outside falls dead

My love for you is one where the upright hammer will fall

Casting out your demons, the darkness before you eyes

Come home to the new life that's been waiting

For as I look at you now you are still locked in bondage

You were given the key long ago yet you remain

There is a path that was made for you

Where you were destined to grow into a man

Forever a little boy, a child alone and afraid
Lashing out in vengence but to who only you know

Now your face is covered in tears

Tattooed by your own hand, out comes the mark of Caine

Placing american sheets on your deathbed

You begin to dig your own grave

Like so many times and people before

You've fallen to their fate, one that is not your own

Give up on the murder of other's souls

This life is not your own, the temple has come undone

Defiled by the hands of wickedness

The holy of holy's has been stained with heaten blood

Giving part of yourself in each killing time and again

Life bearing actions only cause death among the innocent

Taken by the hand and lead to you

A choice must be made about the action you take

Will you play and help them slip farther into the lake of fire

Or will you lend that helping hand that they all seek?

Let your words be true and put away the gun

That weapon of old made from flesh and blood

Covered in lust it has been used to slay so many

Put back the sword and live by the vows of correctness

I'm Gonna Try To Write About Love

I close my eyes and see you there

By my side making it all ok

It's just like me to see something that's not there

Hoping that you'll be the one and only

Taking hold of my whole heart for once

Now I wake up and find you aren't there

I miss you and I don't even know you

And I'll do all I can to do exactly the right thing

To fall into your arms, hopefully tonight

Connecting at the heart strings

Never to come undone, always stuck together

The more I look for you the more I see

That the things I really need are probably impossible

So I'm constently wishing that I am wrong

Just wanting to be with my unknown somebody

Not just for the label but for the joy

A feeling that I so seldomly feel

And when the feelings are gone, I hope you stay

Without running away like all the other ones

The ones I thought were the real you's

They weren't even close and now I truely see

Forever I have craved the day when we would meet

When I could look into your eyes and know one thing

That we are truely one flesh, and this only by sight

Feeling your heart beat and watching the tears form

Wipping them away with my cheeks

While running my fingers through your hair

Letting you know I'll always be there

Never ever leaving, for you will be the one true thing

That thing that I was born to need

Making me complete for the first time ever

How is it I know that I will know you one day?

Come now please, step out from my dreams

So we can live happy and free, even on the rainy evenings

When cloudy skies block out the sun we can still sit and smile

Closing my eyes now and going in for that kiss and miss

Missing your face and heading straight for your lips

Creating a reaction deep within the darkest places of me

Causing my soul to jump and scream, you are the only one

Now with eyes just for you I'll try to be sweet

For anything less for you is just not good enough

So will you take me for who I am?

Will you take me by the hand and lead me to the promise land?

I hope you like my cheesy love stories

Maybe they will make you smile, maybe even cry

But whatever the reaction it doesn't really matter

Because they are all for you, every last one of them

Now I must go and close my eyes once again

Hoping to see you one more time, in my sleep

Split Personality

Why so downcast within me o my soul?

Why look ahead my friend of flesh?

Something is different about this night

As if a thousand voices cried out in terror

And were suddenly silent

Never to be heard of from again

Death is all around us and I can't find myself

Was it one of the victims in the murder of many?

Part of the killjoy that took place in the sky

Look for me and try to find this piece of me

Lost to fire or blown away by storms

You can't bury me just yet there is still more to do

Half hopefull and half craving for my ending

Seven times seventy have I forgiven my enemies

And I am still sent to the hidding place

The room that bad little boys and girls go to

Wishing to wake up forever and at the same time sleep

Hoping that the world will pass me by with my eyes shut

Never wanting anything to do with life anymore

I end up waking up to find someone standing over me

Thinking me to be lifeless they are shocked to find
That I open my mouth and speak a word they did not expect

Truth proceeds me and that is all I know

For I walked through the valley of woe

Seeing all the hardship and made to carry so much pain

All I can do is spread the right things now

Since I have seen my life slip before my eyes

Wanting to live and wanting to die

Wraped up in a silver package with a big pink boe

Losing sight of what the world is really about

I'm caught somewhere between darkness and light

As shadows become my security

The circut is switched on and I'm not sure what to do

Inbetween a rock and a hard place

I'm crying out for help, will I be answered

So the experiment goes will someone be there

When I wake up in the morning

Cut straight down the middle and asked to be a king

Breaking apart to take out the worthless parts

Maybe this is all for a reason, maybe it is for good

The only way I'll know is to go through it

And when I do you'll be the first to know

Marked By Failure

Born with a passion to be the best

The crushing reality was that I would never

Never being good enough for just me

Taken down to a pit I couldn't see

So deep and so dark that fear shook in envy

Nothing in all its years could do this

Installing a fear that went far and beyond

Past all the usual things and into the unseen

Dark things that have never seen the light of day

Dwell within this cave, set in the earth upside down

Walking over it I fell in and never hit the ground

My life was a mess and I only knew of pain

Marked by failure, they were the points of no return

When I got to one marker I just went on to the next

Bleeding through the sheets I woke up to screams

Speaking to demons and beasts like any other person

The nights were so dark and yet I could not find sleep

With my heart removed from my chest, love was out of reach

My foundation was in hatred and I loved it all

Crying myself to unfitfull sleep and then walking in a daze

My illusions were my truths and my dreams became real

Everyone had left and the real pain set in

Pulling back the covers, I laid on my American deathbed

Red white and blue I stood true even into the end

Pasted to my face was a sign to all the undead

Come and torture this one, he was had a life to live

Giving up and throwing it all away

With nothing to call my own, not even my own life

I sold it to the devil for a few moments of pure power

Surging with a strength that I had never known

For once I had control, for once I could rule them all

But those moments faded and I was back to dying

Crushed by memories that wouldn't go away

I truley was a failure, because I made myself that way

Taking the lies of others and making them mine

Putting on the things that others wanted of me

Losing myself in the darkness of my own mind

I had to go to the bottom of the sea to see who I was

That I could make a difference, that I was special

Just to be alive was evidence that I was something

Above and beyond was nothing for me anymore

Being able to wake up and see a new day

Well that was miracle enough to bring me through

Breaking the falling cycle forever I was set free

And it all started with believing I could do it

So reach down inside and pull that inner strength out

Rely only on yourself and the power to change all things

Fate has it that you live forever, so you better live right

No longer marked for failure I am above everything

Every slander and every rude remark

I will prevail, never to be held under again

So pick yourself up and get ready to change

For the day has come where we must all stand together

And tell our enemies that they will never have our lives