When It Rains It Pours

Today on this day hell began to tip

Letting the fire flow over

Spitting out the demons and the worlds lost souls

Ready to kill and ready to be

Something that they've waited for

Back on the streets again

To get revenge for where they got

No matter of the choices or decisions they made

Placing the blame on some other heart

That seems to take the pain away

Tears begin to fall as the shots ring out

Another fallen man in a world of pain

Using my tongue as a sword to kill

I leave you half alive bleeding from every pour

Waiting for your soul to leave your flesh

So on this day I can say I send you to rest

Nothing comes easy everything is hard

Making this world mine means someone has to die

And like the rain from above so flows my blood

Through the streets of my enemies

Strung up for all to see

But unlike the one I let myself down

To show that I am the god they need

So bow down like I've said before

Delivered into the hands of beasts

I faught on until I couldn't fight anymore

And when the sun came up on that third day

No one saw me I ran out of that grave

Now I must make this world my own

Sacrificing my flesh to the flames

And letting the loose demons inside my soul

Waring with the angels all will soon know

That to kill those you hate you must be one with them

To see how they see and to know just how their heart beats

So that kill will be so right and so pure

That no one can touch you afterwards

And in the aftermath of the end of time

I'll still be here all by myself

King of nothing but still king of me

Dark Child

Glass for eyes how do you see?

Hearts of stone how do you feel?

Breaking down the strongholds

That kept me away from you

I'm standing here and I won't go

Until I get to leave with you

Hand in hand the dark child smiles

Creaking open the rock melts away

Falling from the sky and into your arms

Holding me up I learn of love

It's not just giving but getting too

And you give me so much more

More then what you are

How do you do this miracle,

Day in and day out?

To let this dark child out of his cage

Is a miracle in itself

Now I'm desperate for changing

In my seeking of the truth

Make today come alive

And all you have to do is be

Breath in the air and prove to me

That you're all that I could ever need

Make the dark child finally see the light

So he will know not everyone in the world

Is out to get him, to make him cry

Get Rich Or Die Tryin'

One sad song comes out one after another

Deep deep yearnings that have always been there

Staying the same and then coming out of the scene

Judging myself on the words of others

They were all outsiders so why did I bother?

Why did I listen to bitchs with attitudes like you?

I will be the one that makes it big

While you will be the one falling back

Back to the way that I used to be

Hated by all but the most by yourself

Creating a picture behind your eyes about who you are

Nothing to the world and nothing to your soul

I ain't playin' this time man this is my heart come out

Out of the dark and past all the shadows

I'm a new man now and that's what I'm gonna be

King of the world, watch you'll all see

When I take the throne built by the blood of my victims

You will understand it was a mistake to mess with that man

Straight out of the door way and into your heart

The guy you picked to fuck with was the worst of the bunch

Hardened by the world I know where I stand

Over your dead body with a smoking gun in my hand

Now I know the motto of my broken life

Get rich or die tryin'

I'm not gonna go out like a fucking punk

Kill or be killed it's survival of the fittest

Evolving into a beast that will no longer be kept down

I saw the error of my ways and now I'm back for the kill

Murder hides behind my eyes

Beautiful disasters are being beamed straight into your mind

So here I come to get what's mine

Swords drawn dripping in self-righteous blood

Don't be the one who gets in my way

No longer a man of the people I'm a man of my word

And the word of my heart is be who you are

So with that I will take up arms

To bring war to the people who broke my heart

Made on my own I stand for myself

Created for a purpose, and destined for greatness

Here comes the king now you all must hail

Victory is in my grasp and it comes without you

Halfway There

Doubt sits in the sour parts of my soul

Causing wonder to dance inside my skull

Can someone so good even want me?

With a smile like that why even bother?

A heart of gold so pure and light

Can it mix with a darkend heart of steel,

Hardened by past failures?

I don't want this one to end like the rest

Halfway there but the uneasiness remains

Not sure how you really feel

I don't want to be the fool of the situation again

A broken heart is not something I want to happen

Once again no more for me no more falling

Please don't let me fall so far away this time

Nothing would cause my heart to leap more

Then if you would just take my hand

To look in my eyes so I would know you are always there

Joy comes and goes like the ways of the wind

But this time I want it to stay

My support my love my reason

Can you be all these things?

Trying to be an adult around you

Yet you make me return to a childhood

Where no one cared or said they loved me

How can I show you what I mean,

If I never saw how to let it out?

So be there now and let me hold on hard

Creating a place in love and time

Where our hearts beat as one

But I'm only halfway there due to undying doubt

Will you feel the same over a man like me?

The questions continue until the day I know

When you answer the yearnings of my heart

And become the eve of this adam

For now I will wait and wonder

Will you ever make a home,

In the warm spots of my heart of hardness?

Inside Eyes

The reason that I survive

I had to look inside

To find a man that was so long missing

Trapt in my head trying to breath

Looking on with my inside eyes

The content of my heart was so dark

Lost to the fractures of time

Broken pieces laid out for all to see

Through the holes in my eyes

All would know of this broken side

But through all the pain there came a fire

To refurnish the sword so long forgotten

The warrior inside rose from his death bed

Finding a way that is made of pure white light

A way of righeousness that none have saught

Only he, after the return to his throne

Making this place his one true home

No one can take him away anymore

For he is the one who sets himself up

Placing the order of one above the rest

Dictation by others is no more

As the king inside is one of a kind

True love and happiness all come back

Slowly with ticking of time

Fractures come no more

Bloodsport is over yet the anger never dies

Hidden in a golden scepter it will one day shine

So now the dream will come full circle

By the power of a master regaining complete control

Life is what you make it

It can never be given only taken

So don't give it out so quickly

Lest the king fall from glory forever

One last time will be the very last time

Now see with those inside eyes

That view the heart of every matter

And know that this Lord of the manor will never go

Never again forsaking his soul

Smile In Your Sleep

One lie falls before another

Lost in time I become my tears

Falling forever into the ground

Being dropped by the hand that feeds

Lifting me so high to let me down

I smile in my sleep

When I think of something better

So far above the normal

Past all those who said I was nothing

One smile to me is a million in my heart

Joy poured through my eyes when we met

Holding hands and never saying goodbye

I won't let you go as long as I'm alive

Making this love last a lifetime

Where is the one who makes two become one?

So I smile in my sleep

As I think of you

For when I wake up one day

You'll be there sleeping next to me

Somebody Better Call AAA Because Here Comes A Breakdown!!!

All that remains

The rage the pain the hurt the malice

Stuck in my heart

A knife from your hand

The very grip of evil

Well Fuck you and fuck you good

Motherfucker I'm tired of these games

Just give me a straight goddamn answer

Open your fucking mouth and speak

Speaking to you from the pit of hell

This is the place you've fucking sent me

But now I have a new plan

An idea that will change the way I am

I will stand above you

Without letting your words dictate me

Bitch I will own you now

No longer will I look down

I will have some fucking pride this time

To be the best is what I will attain

Striving for perfection, this I will gain

And my righteousness won't be through you

It will be through me and what I do

Nothing you can say anymore will hold me down

Everything you spew will be given back

A million fold over and over again

You will know the pain I have

The scars of my past you will see

So I'm here to break your head

To crush your teeth in your mouth

Turning over in the grave of my mind

I am coming back to life

Vomiting up everything you gave me

I will fucking see you in hell

For I will be the director of the flames

To make sure that you and your kind get the worst

The brunt of the full on attacking

Breakdown the walls you built for me

I begin to see myself through new eyes

Knowing that I am better then you

Fuck, you held me down for so long

Well this is a new chapter in the book

A revolution of my soul and mind

No more will I secom to your ways

My thoughts will be my own

And you motherfucker won't be on them

Not even the smallest part of who I am

Screaming back at you with every part of me

I have rebeled against you and your kind

Bastard is a word I won't have to describe me

I will never be what you want me to be

Fucking bitch for your acts I should end you

Wiping you from the face of the earth forever

Lowering myself to your standard one last time

To see you cast in scorn and shame for all eternity

So your blood will cover my face

In that I will be fulfilled in your perished flesh

Prepare for war motherfucker

For here I come with swords drawn and bombs amassed

To blow you the fuck away so you'll never come back

There is no fear in my heart to take you out

So you will be erased from the memory of all

Bitch don't even start your fucking shit

Brace yourself now for your time has come

When you will bow before me and lose your life

Out Of The Ball Park

Swinging for the fences

Never thought I would make it here

Marking out the spot

The bat goes 'round but I can't see the ball

Out so far over the parking lot

Heading towards the moon

That's how I see you

Without hope I try to make an approach

I see your smile and I wonder how

Someone can tell me I have a chance

Just like a major leagurer

All eyes look to you on the big screen

Trying to compare baseball to life

And getting the hit to finding an invisible love

Maybe you're the one but I really don't know

One of my sisters seems to think so

You are just too good for me

Way out of my league

Just to be near you is intimidating

But to be with you would be a dream come true

Seeing a spirit in you that is so high above

A smile that shines of another

With a voice that breaks down walls

Why is it that I push myself away?

For some reason I have built up a standard

And when you come along and exceed it by miles

Fear takes hold of my heart that holds all my love

Living to wait on you, how will I go on?

Do you even know that I have my eyes on you?

A diamond in the rough places of my heart

Consumed by fire day and night

I have no rest until your face comes into view

Now on my uniform I wear your lucky number

Hoping that I will be blessed by it somehow

So here I am ready to play in the game of life

Stepping up to the plate ready to swing away

Trapt

Suffocating under the sin of the mothers

Driven under by the pain of the daughters

Locked away in my head

The screaming continues as I lay down to sleep

Kept alive but only half way

Somewhere between the living in the dead,

Is where I find this black soul of mine

No joy will spring forever more

For when it comes about

Only blood pours out of the ground

Fermented with the plagues of rage

Rape is on the mind of all I encounter

To open the door to my life is what they wish

But their desires are only fed when they take my all

All my heart, all my drive, and my purpose

To live, I don't know how to make it figure

If I breath the fumes of tortured ambition

Does this make me a man alive?

Seducided by the women in lace

Suicide is on her lips and horror on her chest

Between her legs lays my demise

Now spread I am taken under in her lies

She never wanted me she wanted my grief

For me to pour out tears so she might gain power

My reflection has been altered

And my memory erased

For I have forgotten what it is to live

To be truely alive as they say

Trapt in a place where demons roam the land

Torture always seems to be instore

As I lay dying here on the fire-lined floor

Hell comes so close I can smell the flames

Never able to get away I only sink further

Deeper into depression and further into anger

The sword from the days of old is soon returning

And with this weapon that I used to wield

Even God himself could not escape my wrath

For pain itself was the one behind the wheel

The driving force in my misery of life

Forced to enter into a place I hated

I killed all I knew and all I loved

Waltzing the room with scorpions and spiders

My venom is more deadly then any infection

Damned forever in the ways of terror

A costume of a scapegoat I have put on

Not on my own but by a forced cause

The cause to make me a man burned alive

Sitting in circles to watch me die

Everyone who showed me their forked tongue

Divides my body and casts lots on my clothing

Gambling for the right to end me

They have forgotten how they all have done it

Now kept in a cage crafted in their victims

I won't let these wolves take me alive

Another Dead Me

Just the time that I wanted to see

A piece of me broken before the thrones of kings

Picked and kicked I bleed from all pours

Spitting up the blood from my torn out gut

There is no hope, there is no rest

The burdens grow larger

And their weight greater with the passing hours

Driven mad by their voices

Children molested at the hands of red angels

Fake men hidding under steel masks

Brewing a mixture of my anger and sorrow

Using the tears of my long dead heart

They create a concoction that dissolves the light

Standing in line they become as one

A giant monster of envy

Trying to steal what's left of my soul

Empty the liqued of who I am

Losing time I now take on water

Drowing in a pool of black posion ooze

I fall asleep and wake up in my grave

Locked in the earth from now until forever

I watch another part of me slip away

Another dead me to add to the collection

Hunters come to collect my severed head

Mount it on the wall for all to see

The animal with the most rage

Has been brought down in defeat

One viper devours another before my eyes

Eating their own kind, my kind has begun

Taking bites of me so that I will never return

Never to be remembered I waist away

There is no hope for someone like me

For how can there be hope,

When there is nothing left in me to believe?

Revenge

Bitch

I'm

Going

To

Cut

Your

Fucking

Head

Off!

Oh

Sweet

Sweet

Revenge!

Let

Me

Cut

Your

Fucking

Head

Off!

Load The Gun

Load the gun

Bow your head

Cover my lips

With the blood of sorrow

My eyes break

Under the weight of your stare

Fucking bitch don't you know what you did?

Motherfucker how could you do this?

Stealing my heart like it was nothing at all

Making me a lost bastard child

They say there is someone better

But the better they get

The better they become at killing me

Taking my very soul

Turning my heart from gold to stone

Ending all that I am and could be

I never smile

Tears I have known for too long

And you added to my demise

So now I load the gun

Looking at your face

I pull back the hammer

Aiming at your head

You begin to cry

But I won't be swayed this time

The madman in me must arise

Blowing you away

Taking my rage out on you

All the burdens of past failures

Now fall on you

With an unseen wrath

The judgment bowl is emptied

Straight on your fucking head

So what's left to say besides fuck you!

Stare down the barrel of this gun

And say your last goodbye

For this is the night of your demise

This is the time when all my fear will die

It will go to the grave with you

So as I fire away

Gone will my hurt be

At the sound of your body falling

Falling dead at my fucking feet

Lifeless and broken

Just like you left my heart

Now eat this fucking bullet

You goddamn piece of shit

And you better believe that this is truth

As I sit and ready my weapon

See the emotion fade

From bright white to grey

Black corners fill my face

For evil has come over me

In that you would be slain

Gone from my life forever

The same way my soul is

Lost to whores like you

Now die you little bitch

Here's a round just for you!

She Played Me Like A Fiddle

Turning out like all the other ones

I honestly thought this was gonna be different

You seemed so much better then all the others

But now I see right through you

How you are so heartless like them all

Just another viper in the pit of doom

A bitch on a broom showing me horror

Fuck I was ready for this to be the end

But you fucked me over better then any of them could do

Now all the anger comes running back

All the words of malice and rage that slipped away

Rush back to my head as I dream a bloody dream

One nightmare to add to the list

I was waiting to wake up and I guess I fucking did

Awakend by the sound of your voice

Stabbing me in the back

What is it with you whores that you all get me down?

Do you exchange tips on how to end me?

How is it you all know the spot to hit me that makes me cry?

God only knows the feelings that are surfacing

The urges to kill and steal and destroy

Everything that you first corrupted in me

My heart, my soul, my flesh, my mind

You take them all away

Always shutting the door in my face

Well fuck you I will have my revenge

In this life or the next

I'll always be there and I know this one won't be the last

You'll just be added to the list

Of those I must smite with all my wrath

Just another fucking whore like all the rest

But I will admit one thing

You played me like a fiddle

And for this I tip my hat

So now the jokes on you so wait and see

How I'll fucking kill you with these words

Over and over again

My Heart Is Glad

Once I was a lost boy

Sailing through the world

Going about life's struggles

Making all of them mine

So I crossed my heart

With a sharp knife

Over and over my tears ran like blood

Thick and unending they poured

And in a place where the tide turns quick

You walked into my life

Casting away the sorrow

Making me able to smile

Letting thoughts return that life's not that bad

Every moment gets better with you there

Hope returned with a kiss

And the tears left my eyes

So please stay by my side forever

In that my heart will always be glad

I Just Felt Like Writing

How dare you raise your voice to me

You child of the mind

Living life without heart

Speaking without faith

Too many times I have closed my eyes

And been cursed with your face

My world revolved around you for too long

So now when I drift away you find me

Cowering in the darkness you created

Out of the fear in my soul that you would go

But you never went away, you never left

Now hatred grows where nothing would

Like a black cold weed rooted in blood forever

Call on me a time of seperation

Where I can be myself and find what I need to be

Running from one hand to another

I've just been an animale my whole life

Eating out of the hand of weakness

The same hand that always strikes me dead

Look deep inside and see a heart ten times too small

Black and dead almost gone from the pain

A pain so bad that the dead roll in their graves

They look down from above and only they know

With their angelic eyes they see

And with hearts of gold understand the horror

That one day soon I will be like them

But for now I am the opposite

Burning in my home made hell

Pass the blame like a cup of wrath

So that it may be poured out on the tongues of all men

Everyone that carried a knife to cut me apart

Apart from the womb I was never meant to leave

Stealing me from the warmth of my sleep

Give back my wings so I may fly away

And return my glory so I may have my perfection

A sad child now sits alone waiting for the end

As songs without melodies play in his head

Watching the fair ones dance to the beat

Anger builds up inside as he knows he can never repeart

Never the same thing never the same place

Doing nothing and then something

So quickly that his heart can't beat that fast

Looking in the mirrior I see the soul of this little one

A version of me that is locked away and no one sees

The part that I love and hate the most

For I love and hate myself above everyone else

Killing myself from the inside out the boy must get out

Sticking me with his guilt I bleed from the ears

Hearing his cries for salvation I know he can't be saved

So when I fall he falls and when I die he dies too

Without anyone ever knowing who he really was

The boy inside me is the real true broken me

Lady In The Sky

Garden flowers turned red by blood from the sky

Bullets fly as the anger in my heart begins to rise

Pulling over to the side of the road

There's a gun in my pocket and I won't let go

Going out in a blaze of glory they are all gonna pay

For everything they ever said

For all the things that they so easily forget

What I do isn't for me it's for a greater purpose

But you don't understand and won't even try

Only a lady in the sky sees me and her tears fall

She was the one that held me back on that day

One moment in eternity when the gun was at my head

I know the ways of struggle and pain

But the ways of mercy and peace

That's out of my range

Some future presence calling out my name

With the voice of an angel, who are you?

I want to know what is was that kept the trigger cocked

Ready to blow I had to put the weapon down

And even the midst of hating my life

I somehow found love in the dark of my mind

Emeralds in her eyes she wears a golden crown

As I waltzed with my murderer, she was there

Watching out that I just wouldn't die

So many times people have said that you hate women

This is only half true, some ladies are like that

Getting under my skin I want to kill them so bad

But I know I can't I gotta respect their gifts

And I know that there is one for me

Who holds my hope as well as my thoughts and dreams

Now as the time draws near when you are near

I wish I would have died not to disappoint you

Not wishing for those emerald eyes to shed tears

Because as they fall they become like blood

Falling on the flowers of my garden grave

Though maybe you are there for some reason

But until then I'll be hear

Bleeding from the wounds waiting for my lady in the sky

Cali Quake

Just a regular man with extraordinary dreams

Wishing on a dead prophecy to be the king

Always coming back to this thought that won't go away

I yearn for the wise men to come

And for the holy ones to pour oil on my head

As I walk through the woods on a cold dark day

The earth starts to tremble as if a mother in labor pains

Crying out to me "you're the only one who can save me"

Looking to me to finally be the king of kings

Yet I can do nothing, how do you stop the earth from shaking?

A west siders memory of waking up to disaster

This is my life everyday when I wake up to pain

I can't even say I love you anymore

All truth has been takin' along with the breath in my lungs

Ripping the veins out of my arms

Hoping to die so that I can wake up in the hands of grace

Just knowing that the only thing that works is time

Constantly slowing keeping me alive longer then I need to be

Sleeping through the day and working through the night

I lay in my bed and think of all the reasons why

Why I'm here

Why I'm alive

Why I'm king

Why I'm moving without any motion

The quake in my mind that cracks my skull

Every person I see takes off their face

And always to my surprise I see a demon inside

No one is good and no one is right

So with their white hot fire that always burns in my soul

Words begin to flow from me like a river of wild thunder

Rebuking all that I hate but getting nowhere fast

After it's all said and done I'm once again alone

The leader of a place where it's only me

So it turns out that the right way is the wrong way

As I deliever a message of hatred through tears of blood

Constently being stabbed in the back

California first and then the world will know

That I am coming for you

I must be alone for some reason

If there is no reason then why does it happen?

How Do I Live?

Becoming one with my surroundings

A new ground and a new world and a new sound

The rock turns to lava and the world to ash

And the sound of lonlieness is all I can hear

It all goes down with no one around

It's all in my head and I wonder how do I live

Sitting in a tub filled with hot water and ice cubes

Nothing makes sense and I don't know why

Doing things that hurt myself but no scars remain

Invisible marks form in my head

So when I sit and wonder how I live

I think back to how everyone just seems to walk out

Gone from my life forever gone for good

Then when I think my heart will finally stop for real

Another person comes along just to keep me up

But just like all the ones before they go away

And again I'm back to square one alone again

So how do I live I ask myself

There must be something in this life I see but don't see

Something that is out there that draws me in

Just a little tunnel rat in a world of cats

Some come to help and others to kill

But no matter what they get me goin'

Which why I don't know

So how will I live after you've gone

Only God knows how I will make it on

Not knowing for myself I can't even fight anymore

So here I am half dead making a mess of everything

Take me in because it is the only way

I know how to live

A Tear For Each Story

Bracing for impact

The world comes crashing down

Far too long have I gone without remorse

And for too many moons have I held unforgivness

In my anger I create a life out of nothing

For in my mind I see everything as it should be

Perfectly crafted in the rage of burning souls

Those who don't match the mold die

Those who don't hold a piece of hell will vanish

By my wounds the world is healed a little more

As the one who struck me is taken away

But living in this place where evil has rule

They all walk on by leaving me on my own

Left in an empty pocket of the universe's shirt

All alone I begin to envy the imperfect world of disaster

Yearning for someone to take the pain

Must I kill myself to be put in a place where I can live?

With each cry a day goes passing me by

Once again findind myslef alone

They just keep leaving, making my life take a new form

Always changing nothing stays the same

From birth to death a million shapes will be taken

So how dare any of you call this a game

There is nothing fun about any of this

Losing friends and loved ones just like that

With a turn of the tide one mass hits another

Knocking me off course forever

As I now begin to drift to another land

Where there are no words to describe the pain in my heart

My Own Style

Holding a bottle of something as I walk by

I haven't drank one drop yet I hold it tight

Taking it by the neck as I think of you

And everything you did so I squeeze it harder

Breaking blood vessels in my hand now

All I can see is this bottle breaking over your head

My own style is all of me

A man sometimes broken and alone

And other times ready to wage war on all mankind

So this is one of those times as I walk on

That I think of you and how we just don't match

Me with my anger and you with your whatever

Whoever, could never, be ever, forever

A language no one understands but me

The king of a place that no one's ever seen

And in this place I exchange this bottle for a sword

Dipped in the blood of all my enemies

Formerly living now dead due to their crimes

My ways my law my mark my word my style

It's live or die, so what's it gonna be?

Are you gonna step on my toes and take a chance,

Or stay in your place and relax like all good dogs do?

So do you plan on love saving the day,

And do you think that I will turn into your hero?

Well you thought wrong sucka I do what I want

Say what I say and think what I think

Making this world mine at every chance I get

And with murder on my mind you know it's gonna be good

Now with all that said do you get my style?

Brutal and honest, straight to the core

With a blood red blade and I heart made from stone

I made the man you see today

So for this I thank you, now stay out of my way

Learning To Walk On My Own

I've never been to this place before

Where my heart hurts in a new way

It's like trying to become prepared

For a heart break you know that's coming

And I don't know what to think

Not knowing what to say

Not knowing what to do

This is new territory for me

All because you're walking away

Leaving with memories of me

With so much work still to be done

Handing me over to a new soul

Who doesn't know me from anyone

So now I sit and think

Wondering what my life will turn into

Without you guiding me along the way

Missing your words and your time

How is it now in this critical point

I must learn to walk all on my own

Holding myself up with your wisdom

I've learned so much about life

But mostly about me

So in this time of turmoil

My heart sings a new song of sorrow

Looking at the sky in a new land of pain

Trying to understand its color

Which no one has ever seen

Something inbetween being alive and dead

Gone from my life yet still in the world

Causing me to break

The old ways return to me

And I collapse into tears

With a lump in my throat

I'll try to be what you were crafting me to be

Someone who's just ok with who I am

With who I was made to be

Not having to be a great king

Just an average man on an average path

Though in my heart of hearts I know

You created my for greatness

So thanks for the memories

Lets make some more before you go away

Smurf

You in the blue shirt

Not even looking in my eyes

You are the one I take out my anger on

Everything bad I think of makes me think of you
The one who did so many terriable things to me

Just a little bitch ass girl scared of the world
For everywhere you look you see me

Ready to kill you, to take you out for good

So keep your legs closed you fucking street walker

No man wants to go there anyway

Nothing you can give is worth anything

Because I'm the one who took it all

Now I see after all this waiting that I have won

You can't even look at me anymore

And I smile as I think of your impending doom

The death of a thousand men will be given to you

One small, tiny, little evil girl

Just a smurf in a world of green giants

You turn blue with every heart beat

For I poisioned you with my malice

Now a new joy springs up in my heart

As I walk away knowing you'll never be the same

Try To Render Me Dead

One voice of reason in a world of madness

You traded integrity for a whores life

Lost in the flames of impurity

And consumed by the darkness of false ideals

There are no happy endings

Nothing good comes from a walking corpse

Everyone dies but you died long ago

When I struck you with my forked tongue

On the day when you broke me for the last time

For so long you tried to hold me down

To keep me back from the meaning in life

But now I know the truth

I know what hides behind the mask you wear

Your aggenda of lies and hate

So for this act against me I make my own will

The will to fight, the will to kill, the will to end your life

It was useless anyway, I am the judge of that

And judging by the way you treated me

I'd say that you were a soul straight out of hell

Sent to bring me down to the pit

But I am evil incarnated

I am the one who makes the devil shudder

Death is on my breath and hatred in my hands

Holding the sword of a black heart

It drips of the blood of those like you

Dirty motherfuckers who try to render me dead

No longer will I hide and wait

I stike with a furry that leaves no one standing

Taking everyone out who stands in my way

Especially the ones who carry your eyes

Eyes full of crafty things to pull me under

Well you little bitch you won't have this man

Brace yourself for death for I deliever it on swift wings

Close your eyes and prepare youself for the fire

The fire you were spawned in, and the fire,

That will be your fucking end

The Painted Face Of A Lie

Rejoice the time is near

When those who betryed me

Will be shown no mercy

For the sun has risen on this new day red

Crimson with the blood of my victims

All those who set out to end me

Everyone that talked down to I

The greatest killer of them all

In justice I swing my flashing sword

Glittering in the war torn light

And for you this message is clear

Thourgh my rage they all will see

That you are nothing more then dirt

Like a poor smell that won't leave

Just as the taste of a foul item in the mouth

So you are on the face of the world

Going from one to another
Infecting all those who once held love

Destroying the ways of beauty

You cast your spell on them all

But now I have come to set the captives free

Unlocking them from your trickery

It is time for you to die

For your sins against me and all mankind

I will unleash my unforgiving wrath

So fuck you!

The ties have come undone

And I rise to devour you

Motherfucker just try to run

Show me the fight in your heart

And I'll rip it out of your chest

Trying so hard to run now

I'll break your fucking legs

Seeing mothers so easily hand over their young

It makes me fucking sick

And as my heart breaks for them

My anger takes hold and I break you in half

One half for the wolves and one half for me

The half with the head I take

Sticking a poll through the bottom

And grinning as it comes out the top

Putting you in the ground

I light your broken body

So as the flames comsume your flesh

They too comsume your soul

Your dark black spirit which I have come to know

Motherfucker, I fucking hate you

Everytime I see you I wish to kill

To smear your blood over my body

As I wish to become one with my kill

Taking on all of that I hate and making it my own

Making it me

Your face is one living lie

Fucking bitch you think I wouldn't see your shit?

I am the beast the sees everything in the night

For I am the monster that hopes for the end

The end of your being, of all that you are

Here I come fucker, I've sharpened my claws!

Outburst

My anger flys again

Like the phoenix up from the ashes

No more will I put up with your shit

No more will I deal in your lies

Fuck you with the purest of hate

I will torch the ground where you stand

For what you do to me there is no forgivness

There is no amount of sorrow to change my mind

I'm here to kill you

And to do it right

To strike you dead where you sleep

But to put you through torture beforehand

Lighting you on fire with my forkened tongue

The devil in me comes out

And in your horror you go blind

As the one who emerges is Lucifer himself

The chief captain of evil

Yes that is who you are dealing with tonight

So you little fuck up what do you think of me now?

Now that you are about to die

What do you think of me now you bastard?

Motherfucker this is not a time for you to speak

I'm the one talking here, never interrupt

So when the clock strikes you won't have a final word

Then I will have the last laugh as your blood flows out

Into the world that you corrupted

By your image, by your ways, by your life

Just a wasted man, just a pitty

Your just a lame-ass fuck face

And this is my outburst towards you

All of this done so that you would see

I'm not the little boy that you think you see

Inside dwells a monster who holds every weapon

With every ability to kill and destroy

My first victim will not be my last

So whenever another one like you goes down

I will only see your face as I squeeze on the gun

And when the sun shines down on me

I'll pull out the knife and end the fucking day

Ripping the hope filled light out of the air

Turning the world to night so I will be as one

One with the sky, one with the ground, and one with death

The arm of the demons who come to steal your soul

Fucking taking you out is what I'm all about

You are the one that turned me into this

So my vengeance on you will be at its peak

At the top of the moutain so I can throw you off

Just a bitch of a man try your crap now

Finally I will have my way, after you lay dead at my feet

Dead to the world, dead to their eyes, and dead to me

Just Like Before

It all stays the same

My life going down a dead end road

Everyday the same

Helpless, hopeless, unending

Going on forever with nothing to get to

So like before I gave hope a chance

I opened my heart up one more time

And you walked away

The same old answers

I've heard them all before

What is wrong with me?

Luck I never believed but now I might

Something tells me I'm the unluckiest one

The worst one to walk the earth

My fate is to be just with me

Alone forever I walk in the dark

Yet I keep trying to live like everythings alright

But it's not, I am in hell here

And the thoughts of death come rushing back

With your words and with your tone

They all come running back

Now to make a bad day worse

Others have to add there voice ontop

I don't need it, I don't need this

So just like before I will sit with a broken heart

Waiting for something or someone

Who I know in my heart of hearts will never come

Living In Moments

Everyday I die, laying awake in my grave

Marching along in my head going nowhere

Seeing that I am not alone I come alive

My heart now beats and the blood flows

And this time it's not pouring out

Keeping me, sustaining me, creating me

The moments I live for live me

Making me finally able to smile

For when you smile I smile

And when you shake I shake

Muscle start to turn but it takes work to walk

So nervous that my tongue falls out of my mouth

Losing all feeling from my head to my toes

Gosh you are wonderful lets make this moment go on

Forever and ever now I will dream of you

Remembering forever how you brought me back to life

Reliving the parts that I love the best

The moment we spoke

The moment we meet

The moment we laughed

The moment we connected at the heart

Coming down off of my cloud now

It is time to go back to my dusty grave

But with your every word I come back

So until we meet again I will be asleep in my coffin

Waiting, yearning, and hoping for my moment to live

Give Hope A Chance

I don't know if I will sleep tonight

Tomorrow is a big day

One huge step for love

And one giant glance at joy

A chance was all it was

So with the gull to be brave for once

Asking is the first mark on the road

Now I've given hope a chance

I waited out my time

But now I await when I will awake from the dream

Calling the clock and making it end

Though I hope the it turns to more

I can't expect everything I yearn for

Nothing in life ever lasts

But I'm gonna try, gonna go out with style

So if I die in your arms tonight

Then it will be the best place for me to die

For so long we were only friends

Now I'm hoping and praying that we move on

Traveling a road I once was on

And reliving the fear that again is so real

But I have to try this it's everything to me

This is what keeps me going in life

So I'm gonna give hope a chance

And hope that you will become mine

Black Hole

These times when the voices don't fade

I see the pain coming down my eyes

Blood and fire form to overtake my soul

As once again I am without you and it all comes back

The thoughts I hate and the pain that won't die

Thinking of the times of the past

And seeing them being relived again everyday

Over and over I must be alone

My lot in life, it must be to rot away

With no one to hold me hand

Having no one to see me through

Dying everyday inside my heart the story goes on

Winter continues as everything continues to die

I am not me without one I can't find

Sometimes I dream that you are never there

And sometimes I think that you will never come

For these are the times when I am at my worst

Living in the nightmare world of never being loved

All I get are beatings by the tongues of me

Who say that they love me and batter me again

A black hole forms over my feet and over my head

Sucking me in two directions

I am pulled apart for all time and forever

Being split is the name of my mind

Wanting so bad to die and so badly wanting to love

But who could love a monster like me,

With all my scares and impurities?

If I hate then you must hate, and I hate myself

There is no beauty for this beast

And now I fall down the hole into hell

This can be the only place for a man like me