Judas

A name the sums up betrayal

Cause of the death of perfection

In the modern world I look and find

The incarnation of a new Judas

On all the faces of all the fake ones

Frauds who would hand me over

Thinking their my friends

The prophecy would be fulfilled

Betrayal by a kiss you dare mark me whore?

Raw and freash the wound is now open

Smell the putrid air that surrounds me

Become my own personal death blow

As I look in your eyes you would turn

From a position of nothing you kill

Like all the others who came before

Out of every twelve comes an uneven one

The one and only murderess one of Cane

Strike the hand that holds you up to life

Why would you go behind my back to talk the trash?

If you have the gall to speak then say it to my face

An eye for an eye and a life for a life

What can you kill in me that has not already been dead?

Victory in a realm where a kingdom of love is formed

Back to the point I can still see through you

There is always going to be a person with hate in mind

But like I said there can only be one Judas in every group

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Replace The Living

A scar for every heart

A machine for every breath

Try to hold me back

The world will now cave in

In the end I will live

Even without the rest of them

You can never replace me

The living will out last the dead

I am the enemy at the gates of steel

In bloodlined calligraphy I write of my wrath

With every passing day I have another score to settle

Mayham springs up across the land

The absolute to the truth is that there is only one

Truth is never what you make it for we can only lie

Even as the demons come in the door

We turn away and bury our heads as we are cut down

Choosing to not believe will keep you from living

But even after they all have parished

I still stand ready to fight

You won't replace me with metal works of art

I am my own man now

One living sacrifice amongst a field of corpses

Death smiles at me and I wink back

You'll never take me alive

One More Go'round

Doing the dance of hate for the eyes of all men

Electric energy pulses through my veins

Smashing all enemies they cringe as I come

Lets do it one more time for old times sake

Take my hand and close your eyes as my other comes down

Till the day I die I will be here

Right behind you making your scream

Horror is in the cards for you the harlot of pain

Now do you know that I'm angery?

Can you see the rage I hold inside?

Broken on the floor I got up to live again

Revenge keeps coming up in my speech of why I hate the world

Fate brought me home to torch the day you stood before me

One more time, is that what it will take to get you to die?

Flowing out of my soul is the dark fire that consumes you whole

Straight down to hell you will go as I cast you away

I can't get away from this thing called hate

Light exsist no more as I put the cover over your eyes

Get ready to be hung as the floor beneath you falls

I'm Nobody! Who Are You? (Emily Dickinson)

I'm nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too?
Then there's a pair of us-don't tell!
They'd banish us, you know.

How dreary to be somebody!
How public, like a frog
To tell your name the livelong day
To an admiring bog!

Darkness Strikes

Pain knocks you out to a world between the living and the dead

So soft it comes so hard it hits as the sky burns away

Red clouds drip broken hearts to the earth as we cry

Turned from flesh to ghost I have become your worst nightmare

Eating your heart out one memory at a time

You begin to see that darkness has arrived and there is no getting away

I am the one they all said was coming, I am the worst of all mankind

Now laying dead on the floor do you see the end has now come?

Don't ever try to hurt me again

Bringing angles down to the fire my voices calls you to your doom

Fall away into a new place where my rage roams like a beast

No one can say that the pain is no more

Pain last forever even after all the rebukes and cleansings

Holding my head under the black water was your biggest mistake

Trying to kill the piece in me that was already dead will cost you

Your waltz on the graves of my spirit and soul are coming back for revenge

Darkness has now come to you and this will be your end

Sick

I'm sick

It sucks

It hurts

It burns

I'm sick

It stinks

It bleeds

It kills

I'm sick

Sick body

Sick mind

Sick soul

I'm sick

Sick words

Sick thoughts

Sick memories

I'm sick

So sick

So sick

So sick

Killing Me Softly

Tortured here this fucking day

My eyes burn red as you walk away

How many days must I cry these fucking tears?

How long does it take to lose a memory?

You kill me everytime you speak to me

As I remember the lies you spoke so easily

On the day we first met

If I would have known it would end up like this

I would of walked away and never looked back

You took the heart I gave

Spit on it and threw it away

And now your back to say that you love me

Well fuck you bitch those days are dead

There is no more love left in me you ended that in me

With all your promises that you placed in the flame

I loved you like no other

Didn't that mean anything the day you pushed me away?

So fuck you now I don't want you back

This break up stays so stop coming back

I won't forgive you I will hold this rage forever

So when you come around you will get the knife

The same weapon you thrusted into my back

What the fuck is wrong with you

Breaking your dead mothers promise like forgetting a bad day

That's pretty fucked up I don't know if I could handle that

Take back all your kisses and all the embraces

I don't want you in my fucking head

Killing me o so softly you thought you could get away

Well you though wrong bitch and I'm out to get you

That Feeling That Just Won't Go

Stuck inside the inner most inner of my being

A leech that sucks away at my soul

Burning with this aggression when will it lift?

All I see is this world going up in smoke

No one is left to help me

I have now been left behind for the final time

Hatred won't ever leave my side

In an age where the pre meets the post

One bad age begot another colder age

As the time of peace and restraint has now died

This feeling of being alone just won't go

This feeling of rage just won't pass me by

Where do I go from here in this life with no path?

Help me to remove this thorn from my side

Take the pain out of my heart one last time

Make it so I will drift away and never come back

Alone Again

Where is my refuge from the rain?

And where is my shade from the sun?

Where will my heart travel on this day?

And where will this heart find love again?

Questions without answer

I live now day to day

Pushing for a future

That I can't see anyway

Now until the day I die

I'll live as an open letter for the world to read

Why must I be alone all over again?

And why must the pain return worse then before?

Why is it that you lied to my very soul without remorse?

And why is it that you can look at me and not know pain?

Question asked unto the darkness

While the replys come as broken whispers

Going around in circles facing the same traps

Now I'm back to where I hated being

All over again I'm living my life straight through

Forever's Don't Last Forever(A Song Of A Broken Heart)

I can't blame you for all this happening

I can't pass the blame to myself either

I thought I was gonna hold you forever

But I guess forever's don't last forever

Skin to skin and breath to breath

Whenever you fell I went down too

Connected at the heart strings for good

When you left my heart went too

My eyes cry a new kind of tear

My eyes now see you gone, goodbye

My prayer was to love you forever

But I guess forever's don't last forever

Skin to skin and breath to breath

Whenever you fell I went down too

Connected at the heart strings for good

When you left my heart went too

We had so much and went through hell

We had a helping hand whenever in need

We said we would be there forever

But I guess forever's don't last forever

Forever you were held in my heart

Forever in my heart

Forever you were holding me near

Forever holding tight

Forever you were perfect by my sight

Forever perfected

But I guess forever's don't last forever

They don't last forever

The Message

Wow back again and it seems like it's been forever

Here I am with the same old gun pointed at your head

By the words of my mouth it is like burning coals on your feet

If you think you can just walk over me you've got another thing coming

I have a message for this world and it's don't piss me off

It's 11 0'clock do you know where your children are?

I know where they are doing everything you told them not

But I was the one who was always home doing the right thing

Yet everyone that stepped up to me took a dump on me

Telling me that I was worse then I really was but now is the day of redemption

There is no mercy for all of you who put me through so much adversity

I will not stumble and I will not falter and I will not fail at ending you all

All you dogs that came at me with so much fury and hostility

Open the bottle and pull out the flyer and see a picture of me on the page

A wanted poster floats around the ghost town with only the eyes of the dead to see

Do you think that all this killing that I talk about is just a joke?

Next time you feel like a good laugh come up and try to throw a punch

Don't even bother running your mouth you'll just wind up dead faster and deadlier

I walked around my whole life with a knife in my back

So you think that what you can say to me is going to hurt more then living a life of blood loss

My message to you is if you don't have anything to say don't say it with rage in your voice

You don't know pain and you don't know anger

I know everything negative for I was the one who invented all the unpure things

Just a talk whore paid off by some inner pimp but what do you really get in return

No love that's for sure and whatever pride comes soon leaves as you lie dead on the ground

Try to stop me now all you haters but just wait

The message will come across clear as day when the blood begins to pour of you and never stops

Terror-Overcome (A song the sums up how I feel a lot of the time)

Everything I loved left me

Everything I cared for died or changed

I've fallen, I failed

And I lost everything I fought to gain

Over - Overcome

Everytime you spit in my face

Over - Overcome

Add more weight! I won't break

Over - Overcome

Won't allow myself to be beat

Overcome, Overcome, rise back up

Always trouble surrounding me

But I've learned from past mistakes

I've seen true hate, felt real pain

Still there's nothing that can stop me

Break me down

I will rise back up

I'll overcome

Best friends become strangers

True love it turns to hatred

Nothing you can do to me

Still something deep inside

Tells me to be free

Throwdown-Forever(One of My favorite Songs)

i know a thing or two about you. your bullshit attitude. you're fucking weak and lemme tell you it shows right through. you don't know shit about me or my friends. what they are what i am. so cut the shit and try not to pretend. you're scared of who and what we are and so you question yourself. but your pride won't let you show your fear to anyone else. you don't know me. so don't judge me. you don't know you. you're too scared to. you think you know. why i'm here after all these years. you wanna know? well i'll tell you fucking why. go. for myself. for my friends. for my family. forever. i'll take this to the bitter end. you don't know a single thing about me. just what my enemies say. well fuck them and fuck you. that shit won't cut it today. be a fucking man and stand up to find the truth in yourself. for yourself. by yourself and not from anyone else. you think you know. why i'm here after all these years. you wanna know? well, i'll tell you fucking why, go. so now where are you? i'm still here, i'm still proud and i still know what it takes to be true. for myself. for my friends. for my family. straight fucking edge. forever.

Image Before Me

Reflections of a man I don't recognize stare back from the waters of fate

I am a person that died so many times and all the scares remain

Coming back time and time again there is no relief in you

What was pleasing and what felt good has left my side and become a thorn

Aching for the pain to go away the man I am falls away dead

Set as an idol before the soverign one I grow a headstone where I sleep

Fire and ash fill my eyes as I wake up in a nightmare that won't fly away

Be made known my soul and awake to find light on the other side

After so many put downs and acts of hatred what am I but broken flesh and blood

How am I susposed to see myself as anything when no one will see anything at all?

Question go out with no answers in return as I float off to an eternal rest

Wicked men wish to see me go but I hold on with one last breath

Self image was never a thing of the past it was a thing that never was

Growing old in the body of a child a man is missing a life in this universe

All day I search and do not find for my voice has been taken away

Mercy and grace allow me to find only peace in the grave and that is all

I don't see anything for my presence has grown so cold over time

No one should have to live in a cast made of invisible stone

Spit on for the last time revenge comes only to my mind and down to my heart

I exsist out of pure will but that will is not of my own so whose will could it be?

Hurt by the process of the black death that grows in my lungs

One push out and everything will leave me all over again

Watching you die so many times I now see myself go where you once stood

Help an old man get through his last days with at least a little pride

Lend a hand for once so that I may drift away and out of your life forever

Going Back With Every New Day

Looking back I see a life that I once lived

Now looking forward I see the same old thing

Over and over I beat myself made to think I was the worst

Hating every second that I had to live in this world of blood

Fucking people trying to fuck with me in so many fucking ways

I don't have time to fool around with fucks like you

Now fuck off and go home just leave me the fuck alone

I'm sorry that I'm better then you

And I'm sorry that I am going through this life faster then you

But what I wouldn't give just to be loved again

You don't know what it's like to be raised in the dark and suddenly know light

Blinded by the evil of this world I don't even know right from wrong

The only thing I know is how to get my own even if that means I kill you

Stupid ass bastards like you make it so hard for me just to breath

Guns blazing and fires rain down on all the hell bound hounds before me

Everyday is different yet somehow the same

Fucking motherfuckers thinking that they can out fight the all pro-fighter

Each sin comes back from the previous sundown to get me down

But what I do in the darkest corners can't be seen by men

Only one can see who I really am and so offten I don't even think about Him at all

I walk on though life backwards not able to leave the shit of yesterday behind

Never having anything but memories I can't wait to forget

Here I am on this rainy day so happy that there is no sun in the dark night sky

Not able to see the new day helps in not being able to feel hates hands on me

How am I going to live in a world where everything turns out the same

Everyone died everyone's dead so come on and get me death here I am

I Want To Be King

Here I am ruling here on a throne of everything precious

With an iron secpter and a hand like wool I have the attention of all

Bow before be and watch the blessing flow down from me

But if you love me as if I am a product of your flesh

And you will see things that only the deepest of sleepers dream of

Now for all of you who would stand to hold me down you got another thing coming

I am the king and at my command you are slain where you stand

Every man that ever rapped, stole, killed, destroied get ready to die

For every man that slandered the one true God watch the wrath of Solomen fall

Sampson grew his hair to honor the Father and in turn gained strength

So for all those who respect my authority you will recieve a great reward

As a ruler who loves to see all people flourish

All who come against that come against me and will see demise

Try to tell me I'm just like you and try to say I'll become nothing like you

Well look at me now suckas I am the king of all things

Born to be this man the one who prepares the way for the son of peace

I am the lord of the earth but in reality the king of nothing

Everything I have has all been given and can be taken away

So when you bow to me you bow to the one who sits on a throne so high above

How I wish that this was more then just an empty dream

O what I would give to make all of these words truly come true

Made New

Back into the world I have a plan and a path

Nothing matters from before

That man has been slain in my heart

Everything I said was an effect of my evil flesh

I will crucify him daily and live a higher life

When the world looks and says I can't do it alone

I look back and say that the I AM never leaves my side

More then anything else I want to be loved

And the grace and love of my creator is more then enough

Today is the dawn of a new chapter in my soul

Where I am made anew and set apart by the spirit of hope

Peace comes when the enemy steals and destroies

Thanking the Lion of Judea for all I am

Falling facedown I speak in a tongue that only my soul knows

Hold my close maker of the world let me feel your heart beat

Springs of life fill up within me as I become a living sacrifice for You

Here We Go

Anger rising hatred flowing blood now spills on the floor

Fucking bastards think you can run my fucking life

You thought wrong if you thought you could hold me down for long

Motherfuckers thought that I was just gonna roll over and die

Well that was the last mistake you ever got to make

Because I just stuck a fucking knife in your back

Must we go back to all the things I walked away from?

Why is it you keep bringing back all the things I hate?

Do you just want to start a brawl or are you just that stupid?

I'm not afraid to step up to you and throw the first punch like you want me to

Bitches that talk so much shit but can't back it up with actions

My actions speak louder then the words I scream in your fucking ears

So much crap swarms around me from all thing horror you put me through

Now I'm here to say that I'm not gonna take it anymore

So if you want a battle then come on lets go my knuckles are made of brass

I will destroy you, your just a little motherfucking bitch anyway

How much of a challenge can you be with your useless life

Puny arms don't stand a chance against the might of every soul in hell

You fucking think that I am kidding about being indwelled by the worst of the worst?

Bitch please your such a disease and I'm going to put you to rest for good

See the hole in the ground I dug in advance for you, that's your fucking grave

You and your whole crew can't even stand up to me so fuck them and fuck you

See me here still standing what do you have to say for you fucking life?

Nothing just like all the times before you forced me to say that about my own

No more will I submit to you I am gonna beat you to death until you cowar before me

Fuck you and this place that you think is your own

I built this world of violence and hatred your stepping on my home turf

Pull together every allie and every weapon you have that still won't stop me

I'm here to kill you and every fucker out there just like you

There are so fucking many, so look away while the world goes up in flames

You try to hurt the ones I love and I swear you will fucking die

Over on the hill of the skull is a cross that I am going to put your burning body on

See the rage and see the pain and see what everyone is so afraid of

I am the king of this place and try to overthrow me and death will be a good thing for you

Killing you and bringing you back again to do it once more

Beating the shit out of you is what I'm here for

And you thought that I was just anothing fucking angry guy

Angry is an understatement of how I feel every secound of this fucking day

No one can fucking save you now you're already fucking dead

Metallica-One (Great song)

I Can't Remember Anything

Can't Tell If this Is True or Dream

Deep down Inside I Feel to Scream

This Terrible Silence Stops Me

Now That the War Is Through with Me

I'm Waking up I Can Not See

That There Is Not Much Left of Me

Nothing Is Real but Pain Now

Hold My Breath as I Wish for Death Oh Please God,wake Me

Back in the Womb its Much Too Real In Pumps Life That I must Feel

But Can't Look Forward to Reveal Look to the Time When I'll Live

Fed Through the Tube That Sticks in Me Just like a Wartime Novelty

Tied to Machines That Make Me Be Cut this Life off from Me

Hold My Breath as I Wish for Death Oh Please God,wake Me

Now the World Is Gone I'm Just One Oh God,help Me

Hold My Breath as I Wish for Death Oh Please God Help Me

Darkness Imprisoning Me All That I See Absolute Horror

I Cannot Live I Cannot Die Trapped in Myself

Body My Holding Cell

Landmine Has Taken My Sight

Taken My Speech

Taken My Hearing

Taken My Arms

Taken My Legs

Taken My Soul

Left Me with Life in Hell

Blank Reflection

Staring back are blood red eyes

Facing the waters of lives past

I come to find I was cursed in this life

From the plauges of the past I was made

To live in a world where darkness was light

No cheers just fears without hope only pain

My life form is invisbile in all realms but hell

Struggle is the name of the game as I fade away

Black holes on the outskirts of reality become my home

For I live in a place where no one returns

Going down the path made for the worst of all

No one cares what happens to a monster like me

Standing above the chosen children I look so menacing

With my cloke of black rage and my eyes full of fire

They scream and plead even before I arrive

What they don't see is my bleeding heart inside

So they judge on the externial and for this must die

A beast among creatures of a higher nature

I yearn to be normal like the rest of them all

Special is not all it's made out to be

It keeps you from living for it puts you so far apart

What will I become after I have fallen away?

Will you tell me or hide it in your soul like all the other times?

Being blank shows no emotion but holds them all

Hating every second that life ticks on I am ready

To let go of the edge of insanity and let fate take its toll

Bind The Strong-Man When You Enter The House

Enter a land where demons rome free to do as they please

Where when you go home you begin to laugh at the site of blood

Torture starts in the mind and ends in the flesh

Growing up cold no body loves you and no body cares

This is hell on earth for all those who are rapped by society

The clock strikes the bewitching hour and every dark thing comes alive

A curse is placed on this house and all those in it

No one is getting out alive and they won't even know they're dead

Suffocate on the lies of the evil one as an angel of light arrives to fight

Intersession is made by the pure but the wicked fight with prayers of their own

Tongues of vipers and stalions are spoken one to pass and one to keep the darkness

Warriors stop fighting each other and kill themselves where they stand

As the noise of the war has broken their souls and devoured their minds

A chief spirit of evil is bound in the river of tears and has been set free

One prophet speaks of the battle to come and the other of victory

Bind the one who comes to kill or let him in as a friend among sinners

Celebrate the life you should have lived and the one that's now passed

Open the coffin and see that I am not there but it is your face that looks back

Now the skies are filled with fire as the good begin to fight the bad

So understand that we are coming

The ones who have a lust for the ones without souls

Face The Judge

The invisible realities of my mind come alive to throw you down

Straight down for all to see you fall into the pit of horror I created

Every evil thing and every vile creature lives here

In the darkest cornor of my mind

I know who I am and I believe that what I say must go or else

As the one and only Thought Crusader I wield the sword of doom

Just an insecure little boy it is you that I must kill to be king

Now is the time when you will face the judge and not get away

Watch now as the hammer falls and the noose goes around your neck

Cursed are all who hang from a tree so as I nail you to the cross you take the pain

All that I hold against myself I put on myself and sacrifice all that remains

The perfect lamb the greatest one, it is me for I had to die to live

So forget who I was or who I am for that is all about to change

A devil is about to come out of me to take over this sunken world

I am the ruler I am the one I am the man behind the iron mask

Stare as I take it off to show off my marred face to this dying land

Bow down low and submit yourself to the fire of respect for your leader

Here I am before you, will you listen or will you die on this one final time

I'm Not Racist I Just Hate Everyone

So much of who I am is this thing a blessing and a plague

Talk to me about hatred and you will see I wrote the book on it

Face this new day where I show you how to let you own your rage

Hate is not your enemy it is your friend so let the anger swarm

Everyone is worthy to be hated and with that feel the fire enter your heart

No longer will I be a victim to this life created out of nothingness

I am here to kill and nothing else as the ghost in me comes out

With a knife that's cut through the ages I now come to cut you down

Don't you see that who I am is hidden in the light

Mock me once again and your blood will make a new home on the floor

Now you will know the full potential of my hate as it is poured out on you

Slave

From the beginning you made me believe that I was something I wasn't

Like I was the worst thing to walk the earth and that all looked down on me

You made it seem that not even hatred was worthy of my and even less pity

I become nothing on account of you and was bond to your lies till the day I died

Now looking over the crime scene of my life I see that I was just another victim

A casuality of the world and of the sick game you forced me to play

Only a shadow of the man I was now remains and from that shadow grew darkness

I took all the words of emptiness you pinned on me and made them my life

Hate is my friend and pity my mentor but most of all anger and rage were my drive

Everything that you once tied me down with I let go in the pit when I X'ed up

Straight edge till the end I didn't conform to all of the ways of the world I set myself apart

Once I was a slave in bondage but now I am hardcore to the bone and I just let myself out

No more prison walls made from the barbedwires of depression

My world is what I make it and in this new place I have a vision that I love the best

It's a world where you don't exsist and you don't breath and you aren't born

A place where you can be soft and hard all at once and never have to worry about image

For so long I had no image that my reflection was invisible in the mirrior

Who can say they were slaves to people and demons and unliving things?

I killed that old man and nothing is left of him but the memories for they die hard

No one is born to die but I was on that path but not anymore with hatred on my side

Hatred for all the things of darkness out there that made me the freak I am today

So as I look out over the sea of fire burning before me I can only think of one thing

How in my perfect world I am no longer nothing and you are drowning in pain forever

F.U.C.K. You

F is for how you try to step up and face me but get knocked the fuck out every time you think you are something that you're not

U is for how you act like you're my friend then stab me in the back when I turn around to pick up the mess that you fucking made

C is for all the crap that you put me through every fucking day between your bullshit and your lies I can't stand you anymore so now you will have to die

K is for the killing field that I beat you to death in and engulf your body in the flames of my rage now that is a fitting end to a bastard like you

Throwdown-Forever (I love this song)

i know a thing or two about you. your bullshit attitude. you're fucking weak and lemme tell you it shows right through. you don't know shit about me or my friends. what they are what i am. so cut the shit and try not to pretend. you're scared of who and what we are and so you question yourself. but your pride won't let you show your fear to anyone else. you don't know me. so don't judge me. you don't know you. you're too scared to. you think you know. why i'm here after all these years. you wanna know? well i'll tell you fucking why. go. for myself. for my friends. for my family. forever. i'll take this to the bitter end. you don't know a single thing about me. just what my enemies say. well fuck them and fuck you. that shit won't cut it today. be a fucking man and stand up to find the truth in yourself. for yourself. by yourself and not from anyone else. you think you know. why i'm here after all these years. you wanna know? well, i'll tell you fucking why, go. so now where are you? i'm still here, i'm still proud and i still know what it takes to be true. for myself. for my friends. for my family. straight fucking edge. forever.

I Am What I Am (WARNING EXPLICIT LANGUAGE)

Look on me with scorn one final time

The end has come for you the few who hate me

Born with devil horns they are now put to good use

Fuck all you bitches who thought I was nothing

Look at me now and see who I am

I'm not a bastard like you I am meaner then all of you

Worse off then all the rest I own everything in death

Run and hide you fucking cowards here I come

Look in my heart and see the choking darkness

Motherfuckers try to step up and get down with a beast

I am the monster under your bed and the bad dream in your head

Call me insane or call me crazy just don't call me anything you will regret

Look at me with tears in your eyes

This is the way I like it when the evil die

Holding me back was the last move you ever made

Because punks like you don't live for long anyway

Look upon the pain I hold and see what it means

Lost in translation you fuckers think of me in such dull ways

Unlike you I see past the outside and into the dark

And I see the axe falling even as we speak to rip your fucking tongue out

Look and find out that what I say is never a lie

I spit the truth even if it hurts for most likely it's hurting you

To watch you bleed in agony just shows me how much of a bitch you really are

So fuck with me one more time and you will match the line above

Look at me and try to tell me what to be

Look and see that I don't give a fuck who you are

Look up at me before you die and plead for it to be quick

Look at me look at me look at me and know who the hell I am