A Note To My Lover, My Friend, And My Enemy

Somethings happen in life that hold to reason

No purpose emits from its deepths

Some that say they love go behind your back and steal

I know now that those that love you can be liars

That they can talk out of both sides of their face

Causing so much fucking drama where there need not be any

Making those who should be friends hate one another

Leaving out all the good in a soul and only showing that bad

What the fuck gives you the right?

How is it that you can judge that ones that I hold in the palm of love?

You are not in a place to be passing anything other then the salt

The pillar that you turned into when you looked when told you better not

Destroying something beautiful before it began

I would die for my friends and you try to tear them apart

A scar that has been washed away in many hours of tears

You placed on the hearts of victims who I hold dear

So a note to you the one that I speak to

Look at the plank in your own eye before you find anothers

To my lover I say I love you more today then I did yesterday

To my friend I say I will stand by your side no matter what

To my enemy I say fuck you for trying to ruin lives

There is no room for you to speak anymore

And your cries won't be heard

My heart is hardened against you and you will hold no authority

Your words are now like a blank page that sits without marking

Vague and obscure like the meanings behind what you say

Meaningless and void there is nothing there to gain

As of now you are finished and I close my eyes to your face

Never wishing to see someone that installes hatred in the hearts of men

Making flesh to bone and hearts to stone

You did it to others and you've done it to me

One too many times I've grown tired of your games

Here comes that first round knockout in the bottom of the ninth

A perfect finish to a story that has yet to unfold

Just another fool, who in so much wisdom found only folly

Ontop of nothing now, not even yourself there is nothing left for you

So goodbye you daughter of predestination

Among you there is a devil in your midst and I know it is you

Search for a new crutch now you have been replaced

Don't talk back I have nothing more to say

Hurting me for the very last time, I now see past your smoke screen

I was caught up in something false but I have been set free

No more of this life you try to make me live

Go back to being without me and being alone

There are no friends among those that betray their brothers

For this Son of Destiny has now gone and marched away

Make Me See

How is it you see something good in me?

A creature of evil, a son of the devil

When it's all said and done then take a look back

Face the mark of the indwelled one

Just another monster among common men

Yet there is something that makes it different

Something that makes you want to believe

But I don't understand what it all means

Speaking these words to me of glory and prestige

Making myself out to be the best of them all

Only as my eyes see the same things I was made to believe

Nothing and even under that

The sign of a true wash-up, a lost soul on the wind

Here for no reason, or a reason that is not worth mention

Either one, it doesn't matter, I am the judged one

Spat on and shat on, there is no erasing the marks

Though you still come like an angel in the night

Blazing like a thousand candles, you come to wake me up

But the cloak still remains over my face

I do not wish to face my reflection all over again

Only to see something that I so deeply hate

How is it you can look upon me and not fall dead?

Passed all my understanding and comprehending

This is my last chance to make something of my life

Yet here I am, I still remain nothing, just a wanna-be

Only halfway believing what you say

For maybe, somehow someway, you are blind just like I

Call on me and show me the evidence of the words you speak

Now I am cast in fire, and consumed in flame

Trying to burn my wretchedness away

Displaced in this world, I don't know where I belong

Ugly to the point of making myself cry

All the good words and high praise don't do anything

Only leaving me empty when you go and walk away

My memory will not hold to these prideful things

So try to make me see, but it will work to no avial

I will be stuck in this mask of torture forever

Never to be truely seen by my own eyes

Pedo-Porno-Phile Mind Freak

Motherfuckers like you should be made an example of

Here I come, axe in hand, black mask on my face

Ripping it off so you can look into my eyes right before you die

Know that I am the protecter of the young ones

The little ones I work with day in and day out with

Melting away in the sun of each burning hot day

Yet I still love them and I still make sure they're safe

I see your eyes darting out from under your hood

Bulging in your pants I see you lick you lips

Well as long as I'm around you will get none

Swearing on my life I will kill you all

Touch a hair on their head and I will sever yours

Motherfucker, just because you got touched doesn't mean you touch these

I remember back to when I was a little kid

Running and darting away from sickass fuckers like you

Gone from you I stayed straight and grew up strong

Now I hold the guns along with the keys and the chains

Tieing you down and initiating the torture that you dish out

Licking little boys and sucking little girls

Stealing the innocence from children with bright futures

Bastard, what the fuck gives you the right to destroy a life like this?

Fuck you assholes, here I come with a rusty knife in hand

I love these kids like nothing else so just try to start some shit

Ripping your eyes out and then chopping of your fucking dick

Never again will you be able to look on them with sick lust

Or be able to defile something beautiful that the divine has made

Cutting you at the wrist just to watch you fucking bleed out

Dying on the floor the souls of the small ones come out to watch

Seeing you before you go they smile as all children should

For you are the one who stole the smiles, you took joy from so many souls

Ruining something that wasn't meant for you to even know about

Fuck you bitch this is your last motherfucking day

Bitchass dumbfuck, here is the judgment that I now hold for you

Death in a slow painful way, there aint nothing you can do now

No getting away, no slipping out the back door

Here I come to destroy you, this is the end of your unholy game

Respect Me

Coming up with brand new rules to an age old game

And just like all rules these are meant to be broken

Telling me to show something that you don't have

How is it that I am susposed to know when you won't show?

Show me how to respect something where none is due

Teach me oh leaders of manner how to behave

You say that I don't respect and in all honesty this is true

I don't respect what I don't love and I don't hold in divinity

Some people are in the class of nothinghood and this is you

People of the lowest regard for life trying to teach me to live

I've lived a thousand lifetimes that you will never know

Living them right under your fucking nose too

How in the hell did you not see me dying and living again

Right under your so called roof, a home filled with blacktar love

A fakness takes controle of the room until I speak truth

For what I see shakes the heavens as lightening now falls

Striking all those who oppose me, the wipping boy of them all

Taking the blame and then taking the blows after the event is done

Send one son away and speak lies and deceit to the other

What's wrong with this picture here, and why is it all good to you?

Something is wrong in the minds of this self proclaimed wise ones

The righteous will becomed humbled and their wisdom turned to foolishness

Just some more dime store romance whores

Seeking something that they will never find from each other

I am special, I am above, I am the top, and you live below

Underneath my feet, on your bellies like the snakes of old

So respect me first and then I'll show it to you

For what you do unto me I will do unto you

Treat me fair and it will be in your favor

All those who act in a way that causes woe, shame be to them

Rage of another degree they will soon see coming from thee

A son of man coming on the clouds of the great and beyond world

Do you see now where I am, do you understand the deepth of my soul?

Never, never will you grasp the life that is being lived before your eyes

Turning into nothing and wasting away like those who came before

Old and rotten like those who we see burried in cold dark tombs

Dead among the living, I've chosen to live as part of another purpose

To be set apart from stupid motherfuckers like you

Now respect me here, bow before your son, king above all

Make our home a paradise by seeing me as head over peasents like you

Respect is a two way street, give or take

And if you want any at all you better step up and show me you matter

Because as of the moment as I look out into the sea

I see you there drowning and I don't even give a care

Falling away just like so many who were in my life

Is this the legacy you wish to leave for your child, ruler of the world?

Spur Of The Moment Madness

A sudden rush of blood to the head

Awakening my brain to all you have been

Nothing but a pile of heartach and bloodloss

Remembering back when I poured out my soul to you
And then you left me bloodied and bleeding on the floor

Alone and cold the world came closing around me

Brokenhearted, lost and afraid, I died but without arms

No one to hold me and tell me it was gonna be okay

There was no one there when I cried myself to sleep

Nothing at all to make me feel safe at all

And everyone who came within an arms reach

Quickly went away as if they were a ghost in the darkness

So bent on having just one in my life forever

Yet more come and come and I must sing the song again

Well this is my last serenade, the final verse of the tune

I'll fucking hate you forever if it's the last thing I ever do

Killing you would put a smile on my heart

And a new joy would be born in my soul

For all the shit that you've done to me

You deserve to be executed with all the world to see

Placed on an alter, making you a sacrifice to me

Blood will flow down and ignite the fire behind my eyes

Rage will be subdued as I see you lying there limp

I know the outcome before the start of the show

The story has been written so many times in my mind

Seeing you dead at my feet as you die to the sounds of the crowd

Cheering and waving banners of my majesty

Faithfull in the small things, I have mastered the meaningfull

The end of your life was made just for this

To have me high and lifted up as you suffer and wither away

No more bullshit and no more lies

The air of freedom I now taste and take in as my own

Away from your burdens and your misery

This madness alwasy seems to catch me when I'm not looking
Now as I rip your heart out what is it you have to say?

That you were fake from the beginning?

Or that you were never anything at all?

Fucking bastard's go back to the shit-hole you came from

Never to be seen by my eyes again, just the way I fucking wanted it

The Eyes Of Children

Neglicted and tossed away by the world

Cold and alone, hungry for attention

Waking up to broken homes

While just running through hopeless dreams

There is so much for them to gian

Yet nothing comes without so much pain

Faces crafted from the depths of despair

Little hands reach up to any friendly face

Becoming their best friend in a matter of seconds

Moments of time become eternally lasting elements

A child born from pleasure into darkness

All they know is the harsh world around them

Chocking on the environment of victims and killers

So tough on the outside but afraid beyond belief inside

Come to me now and let me hold you near

Taking on all your hardships and ending your disease

Pulling you away from the abyss of this life

Stealing back your soul that so far you've lived without

Let there be hope and let there be joy

Have some of this mercy, give me your woe

Leading you on a new path now

Follow the message the comes from my eyes

Looking to fade away, never lose who you are

Know that I do love you and that I am there

Ready here to take away from the mess of your home

Call on me and the answer will me swift

Don't let your eyes fall on things that will take your heart

Leave it all behind and learn of a new way

The way I had to find through the same hard times as you face

Speak to me with your eyes now and tell me the tale

Are you now feed, are you no longer afraid?

If so I've done a job well done and the rest goes away

Fading into the dusk, the ending of a brand new day

Sleep now in knowing I will see you tomorrow

Ready to show you the new world, a place you've never seen before

Two Face (Heart Of A Lion)

Like a lion in his cage

Pacing back and forth

A rage builds in his eyes

The sight of something different

An unseen hunger

Surpassing all we have ever known

He understands that which is not spoken

How the world can talk out of

Both sides of their crocked mouths

Forced to take the lashes

Made to look upon the face of pain

Locked away in his tiny cell

This beast belongs on the open rage

Being who he is, truely alive

Yet the same hand that strikes, feeds

So he must stay in order to survive

But his day of vengence will come

Revenge will be on his sharpened teeth

All will know of the wrath he brings

Erasing all those who kill and decieve

Ending every wretched thing

Living these lives with an extra set of eyes

Your lips speak of what your heart feels

Covering the tracks by replacing them with lies

The beast can finally see through it all

Looking deep into your soul and knowing why

You can't understand the meaning of his life

So you have set out to destroy it

Making his reality a living nightmare

The heart of this lion will beat on

Past all the intolerence and the judgment

Liars, come to me so I may devour you alive

I'm tired of these false things I am meant to show

Here comes a new trend now

As I only leave scaps to fill your grave

Reveal your true self to the whole world now

And give me my life back as I take yours forever

Child Without A Name

Do you miss me when I go out at night?

Have you ever really known my name

Thought Crusader, have you ever known that part?

See me looking in on the rest of the world

Overseeing all that there is to see

Everything that you presented to me

All that is fucking wrong in this broken world

Tears fall like shattered glass from my eyes

Shaking now without understanding

How could people be this way

Strangers come and shake my hand

Speaking praises of the highest kind

All in my honor, all for my sake

Yet you sit there with your masks on

Not saying a word, nothing to lift me up

I'm your fucking son, doesn't that mean anything

You ingore me until it pains you so much

That you have to yell, that you have to shout

Making me feel like something lower then shit

Naming me to be one who is like God

Yet when it's all said and done you would thought I was evil incarnate

Suspended by the throat I hold on by a thread

Kicking and screaming now, you're afraid for now the world sees

Your lies, your intolerance, your abuse, that shit you put me through

You will pay with your lives on the day of judgement

As the angels of pestilents and plauges come and take you

Falling deep into the fiery furnace

Your face's melt away as I stand for once in the light of glory

Couldn't you just fucking love me for who I am?

Accept me for who I was born to be?

I'm an adult now but I am made to be as a new born

Creating my own world now, building the image I want to see

And out of flesh and blood it will not be

I must create myself out of bricks and stone

Out of every metal and every hard thing

In so that I will never be hurt again

Never letting anyone else in, you've ruined all things for me

Motherfuckers how could you make a child like this

Only speaking when something is wrong

Only touching when a smack was involved

How dare you do this to another human being

Showing no respect or admiration at all

What's gotten into you, that you could put a beast in a child

Breaking into the soul of a little boy and making him sick

Some weird form of munchaousen by proxy syndrom

I know I wasn't the son you asked for

But you weren't the parents I dreamed for either

Both wrong at the same time, look at all the love that is lost

Over your fucking mental disorders

I've given myself my own name now

ARCHIMEDES, Master of thought

ACHILLES, Pain

MAXIMUS, Greatest

Meaning of the new name

Master of bringing about pain, the greatest of them all

I will own you all one day

You will bow down to the son you hated

Singing a new song of praise to me each day

I will be your god and you will serve me

Making you feel the pain I carried at all times

You will never see the end of my revenge

Under my skin til the day I meet death again

On the day you begin to see I will have my victory

I am not a slave to your will anymore

I'm my own man now, king of all within me

And I'll fucking end you quciker then you think

There is nothing left for me here anyway

Rethink all that you know for a new day comes

When you will wake up and see

That hell has come for you, in the form of your unloved son

Bury Your Dead-Magnolia

Abuse your body but you call it love.
I hear the stories; the bruises speak for themselves.
You think we're blind just because we are young.
I'm old enough to know now that my age made dumb.
I should have yelled and forced someone to hear those things we thought were better left unsaid.
Is now too late?
It dominates my head.
Those things we thought were better left unsaid.
I could not choose a way.
A choice that wasn't mine to make.
Just make him go away.
But if you're happy then I'm glad you found him.
God, please help her find her way.
A choice that wasn't mine to make.
Just make him go away.
Will she be happy when she finally finds herself?
Does she know she has our help?
Why do I ever bother?
We left those things unsaid.
It hurts to talk but I'm starting to wish I did.
We left those things unsaid.
They hurt to hear.
Why do I bother?
Some things are better off left unsaid.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lrOW8saRmP8

The End Of The World

Flatline on the moniter shows the end

A bittersweet memory of what was there

Lost to the fractions of time

We fall in the cracks of modern day lust

And never look back

But not me, not I, no sir, never will I

Leave me now and it will all die

No bleeding hands, no salvation

My life will end with me in hell

Making me general, lord of the dead

There is nothing without you

Right there by my side

I'll become a shadow walker

When I trip and fall over your grave

Dying in my arms every night

I close my eyes and relive it all

Over and over again my heart begins to bleed

Pouring out of my chest with all heaving sorrow

My world crumbles down when you are gone

Out of my sight and out of my reach

Don't die tonight my love, don't go for good

How will I be able to take another breath without you?

My one and only desire and drive

Determination is all I have to get to thee

A picture perfect masterpiece

Risen above all creation and coming just for me

Unearth the times when we were together

Let me live those moments until they become real

Dreams slipping into reality, I want to hear your voice
Calling out my name in all times good and bad

Apocolyptic premonitions occur without you near

I love you with all I am, with all emotion and grace

You are the gift I was always waiting for

Come and lay with me under the budding tree

Let romance take you away, to the place in our eyes

My lace ontop of an already perfect package

When it all fades away it means you have passed into peace

Soon eternity will come for me as I miss your face

I love you my sweet sweet rose, I will always love you

Death...What Do Ya'll Know About Death?

Free of filth I've gone past the forseen life

Dying and taking all I was to the grave

Six feet under and six feet above

I've been to both sides of the mountain

And there is darkness on both ends

Blacker then the darkest of all nights

My mind was full of every single misery

Forced to live with the agony of a million souls

Crying out to me to be the savior of their lot

Pleading for just one drop of water on swollen tongues

The fire inside their hearts is nothing compared to

The fire that dwells amongst their flesh

Burning away at all that they ever were

I've seen first hand the horrors of hell

But I also know victory over death

Where I've looked it in the eye and asked

Where is your sting, where is your victory?

Drug through the street on the back of pitty and scorn

Born into disgust and raised to illuminating power

This conquerer comes in the robs of poverties sake

And by him I am made to know the truth

Finding in the eyes of justice my perfect peace

A rest that only comes in the arms of a healer

I was once dead but now I'm alive

Risen from the dead and touched by something special

Angels give glory to thee a son of thunder amongst thieves

So when you say you know of death do you truley know?

Ask me to see the scars and I will let you know

That by scars I am healed, and by blood I am reborn

It all had to fall for me to get up again

My own and that of another

Death once had me locked away

But now I am forever set free

Silhouette

Going to you everyday seeking something new

What do you have for me so that I may learn

Who I am and what I came from

My past and my future

Tell me the secrete things of the universe

So that I may know all things

I'm just a shadow of the man I used to be

The aftershock of a major quack

Only fingerprints on cold windows remain

With the memories of fomer failures

It was all for someone else

And never for me

How do you live a life without yourself in mind?

I did it and I'm yet to find out how I'm even still alive

Voices begin to fade into one huge blend

Causing me to look both ways just to hear me own

Awaken to find that the real world is just a lie

That there are bigger things out there

Then all of the days in's and outs

Form for me a speech to address the nations

To tell them to keep on going

Never stop for the sake of another mans life

Continue to live and never sell out

You find yourself in those times where you rise above

Past the clouds where the birds of war dwell

One thing's for sure, we are all gonna die

But don't regret not living in the first place

Make this world an adventure

And put on your very own silhouette

Like the sunday's best that sits in your closet

Smile at the thought of finally being alive

Reach out to the love that's waiting there

Be your whole self today and never looking back

This Is Deeper Then It Looks Like

The day of holliness has been obsolved

Watching now as the angels fall

Their burning faces light the way

Sparking memories of a time gone past

When a child was lifted to the alter

And made ready to become a sacrifice

I saw the demons, their fiery faces aglow

It is all real, there is nothing fake about this

Coming to steal the souls of the innocent

To plant lies where there was once peace

Causing war to spring up like possesed waters

Bubbling from the ground the drops become vapor

Burning with the force of eternal fires

The lake of the damned lays behind the curtain

As the holy of hollies is opened for all to see

Defiled by the likes of sinners from the future and passed

A need for blood beats inside my chest with every breath

So let it burn all the way up to the heavens

Let the black wings of the fallen cherubim decay

Creating havoc in the eyes of all those like me

Thrown into a pit where every evil thing can see

See that you are weak and lost, without thought

Taking advantage of the maimed lamb

Sending out the wolves to pick up the scraps

The darkness of a life like this is so overwhelming

Where was the throne of grace I looked for?

Pass before me Truth and show me how

How to break the hold of evil

That drowns me here in my feeble sleep

Bury for me now my limp dead body

Covered in the markings of a self proclaimed god

This is deeper then it looks like

Meanings will be dug for but will they ever be found?

Crafted out of a mold of perfection

Having that taken away made me lose my mind

Alone and afraid in the abyss of malice

Attacked by the unseen, the scars still remain

Opened up my heart and pulled the strings out

I was no man's toy, I was the ulitimate in power and demise

Dead yet alive it became all I knew

Puritians took up arms against me

Spitting on their former brother I closed my eyes to let it in

Hoping that the dark behind my eyelids would take me home

Praying that I would wake up dead

And leave all the world behind

Mercy fled and all I knew was pain

The spiritual became reality as I saw the dark come to life

Screaming my name in the middle of the night

Something wretched and horrible all at the same time

Nobody heard my cries yet the cries knew my name

One deep deep grey took me over the line

Passing into a new world where the streets aren't paved with gold

Brimstone became my only friend as I was now alone in hell

Waking up in the arms of a beast

Claws stuck deep into my flesh

But now only skin and bones

The gun was loaded and the knife sharpened

Suicide exsisted at the forefront of my mind

A world full of excuses and denile would be my grave

So I embraced it all with open arms

Hating and loving every moment of it

Proving to myself that I truely was nothing

As the pain came and stole my very soul

Now as the days grow bright and full of life

I look back and see where I came from

Walking out of the shadow of death

To be a man that has seen death, and looked him in the face

Not afraid anymore I know the outcome of life

Everything happens for a reason so this came about for one too

Installing an anger that rids the world of evil

I've come to expose the darkness and its might

The Thought Crusader is here to save the lost

All those who are like me, unaware of the life they really live

The Valley Of Death

I've begun to fear evil

It's breath I see on the wind

Carrying an aroma so beautiful

It taste like everything that I love

Preparing a table before me

In the presence of me enemies

And when the food and drink is gone

They break the bonds of peace we formed

To attack a servant in his masters house

Ash fills the air as the world we know burns

Justice has turned to malice

And mercy now begets hatred

Filling the voids with more cries from the soul

Our very deepths are being shattered

As we speak spirits of old become lost memories

The valley fills with blood as death rides through

My hope was in something bigger

Thine eyes locked on the greatest of all creation

Yet the night still came and with it wrath

Taking all that I once held close to my heart

A beating chest now stops breathing

Making the sacrifice to something I don't understand

One brother turns against his own

Now that the household of righteousness has been upturned

Set in suffering the mountains fall at our command

Ending all the misery only to cause more woe

How will we remove this body from under the rocks?

Performing a funeral without the body present

Light a candle and watch the flame build higher

Tears fall to the ground as the earth itself begins to mourn

This is the beginning of the end and all know it

Clouds begin to form and the acid rains down

Destroying everything we worked so very hard for

The land comes up from under our feet

Falling faster, deeper into the bowels of the earth

A universe that was so endless grows so small

Breaking hearts pile before the demons of this realm

As the ocean pulls back, forever to be unseen

Darkness runs wild and no sun is ever present

War has come to consume all of our souls

And only an epitaph remains of what we once were

A carving of the last to have been living

"We're glad that we've finally gone home"

Don't Fucking Judge Me

Anger reaching up to the highest heights

Where do you get off telling me wrong from right?

Have you seen the things that I've seen?

Have you lived the life I've fucking lived?

You don't know shit about anything

Yet there you are passing your judgement

Telling me what to say and even what to think

There is no telling me anything anymore

I have become my own person now

You do not dictate the man I get to be

From the outside looking in

In order to understand you have to come in and look out

Don't fucking judge me

You don't get that right

And even if I love you, you still don't own that

I make who I am and nobody else

Becoming the king over all of myself

No one reigns on any part of my being

Thinking for some reason that you owe it to yourself

To open your mouth at every fucking chance

Telling me how in so many words I'm not good enough

Well fuck you then, I don't need that bullshit

Maybe I need to walk away

To hide in the arms of someone else

Not giving a shit about the fucking tears you've cried

Look at the scars that I hold inside

And try to tell me it didn't all hurt

That my blood is not as righteous as yours

Fuck you with the purest of hate for this

For trying to change everything I worked so hard to come about

Out of the darkness and into the light

It doesn't take much for me to bring you back

Back to my former life where I would have knocked you out

Not caring who looks or who sees, who hears or who bleeds

Everything was the same to me

So be careful what you say, or what gets you so butt-hurt

Pass now for me onto the other side and see one thing

See how I fucking have to live

Every fucking day all alone in this shit hole called home

Where no one loves you and no one ever smiles

Even in acting out no one sees the reasons behind

Cover me in you fucking venom and see the result

A fucking knife at your throat

This is my last song from Zion, my city of hope

There is no hope for me or for those who critize

Who I am, what I am, how I am

My purpose is to be what I want to be

No one is in charge of my life, no one is the boss of me

And I'll fucking end anyone who thinks they are

Those who try for the speck in my eye

When there is a log in there own

Look in the mirror if you want to judge something

The gavil will never fall from your hand concerning my life

It is my own and nothing gets between that

Owning it all, every little bit

Don't try and pull any of your stupid shit

Saying it was a mistake, you know that's horseshit

Don't fucking judge me assholes, or it will be that last thing

You will ever utter from your damning lips

This Is Your Brain At 3:25 A.M. (A Love Poem)

Awake and I don't know why

I feel like writing a love song

I think it might be good

As you are the only face I can see

When I sit and close my eyes

Like the sun setting on the ocean

Or the moon rising above the clouds

I can see you shinning back at me

A radiant smile and perfect crystal eyes

It's all I can think of at 3 in the morning

My heart aches that you can't be here

For me to hold and to kiss goodnight

I'll do all I can to be your saviour

To keep you safe from harm

And protect you on all sides

Loving you always from this world to the next

Fighting all your battles for you

And you know they will all be won

Because I am your knight in shinning armour

As you are the song of my heart

The joy of my worthless life

You came and made the old turn new

A miracle when I thought I was only cursed

Love is not big enough of a word to describe

All the feelings I hold inside for you

Listen now as I tell you how it'll be

Greater then any show on earth

More powerful then anything man could make

I'll be the one to wipe your tears away

And to lift you up when all others bring you down

You are the sunshine of my life

As well as the sparkle in my eye

Take my hand in yours and lets talk a walk

Holding onto one another and wishing for longer goodbye's

Gazing into your eyes now I see the rain we danced in

But they are only cries of the happiness we share

So spray me with your perfume so you will last a little longer

When I close my eyes at 3:30 AM to sleep

You will still be closer then ever

Making a place deep in the rocks of my heart

Forever grasping my spirit, trading our lovely things

There will always be a place for you

With some pillows and some sheets

Let's sleep in the arms of love for all time now

That place between our bodies and minds

Because I Could Not Stop For Death

BECAUSE I could not stop for Death--
He kindly stopped for me--
The Carriage held but just Ourselves--
And Immortality.

We slowly drove--He knew no haste
And I had put away
My labour and my leisure too,
For His Civility--

We passed the School, where Children strove
At Recess--in the Ring--
We passed the Fields of Gazing Grain--
We passed the Setting Sun--

Or rather--He passed Us--
The Dews drew quivering and chill--
For only Gossamer, my Gown--
My Tippet--only Tulle--

We paused before a House that seemed
A Swelling of the Ground--
The Roof was scarcely visible--
The Cornice--in the Ground--

Since then--'tis Centuries--and yet
Feels shorter than the Day
I first surmised the Horses Heads
Were toward Eternity--

Emily Dickinson

Tale of a Gothic Princess (I Did Not Write This)

Princess Dominica looked so beautiful
All dressed in black
With white make-up and dark purple lips
She sat on the throne so full of majesty
The onlookers were dazzled by her beauty
And worshipped the ground she walked upon
The King was not well
And expected to die soon
And the Queen had died long ago
So the young princess would soon rule the Kingdom
Everyone was impressed with her intelligence and grace
She carried out her duties without question or complaint
And she would always greet new visitors with a smile
Once the audience was over she would return to her rooms
In the privacy of her own room she would cut her wrists
And let the blood pour into a bowl
She would force food down her throat until she could eat no more
Then she would go to the lady’s room and be violently sick
Underneath all her garments she was painfully thin
She felt so much pressure to be beautiful
She had many suitors but none that she loved
A stranger from abroad arrived one day
And stole her heart
But he was not a suitable match for a princess
A handsome sailor of common stock
She pleaded with her father to let her marry
But he doggedly refused her request
One night she took the blade
And slit both her wrists
Not a cry for attention
But an attempt to take her life
Living was a torment to her
The expectations too high
The rewards lacking in true value
Her dead body was found the next morning
And all the towns folk mourned her death
The beautiful princess had departed this land
And headed off above the clouds
To find a happier resting place
A traditional Gothic funeral was held
To celebrate her life
Many fine words were said
And then her body was buried
Under a thousand red roses
Her Cousin Isabella was now next in line
And took over the royal duties
A heavy burden for a fifteen year old to deal with
“So many souls are sacrificed on the road to glory”

Speak To The Dead

This is what your eyes say when you kill your worst enemy... I dedicate this to my enemies

Time for you to burn motherfucker

No longer able to cause me torture

Fucking bitches with so much attitude

I will speak all the hostel words I can muster

The hour of your end has dawned

And here is how I will fucking kill you

Tieing you up by the wrists

Mutilation is an underscore of this

Beating you with every blunt object

And ligthing your body on fire

I will soon nail you to a metal cross

With spikes impaling your whole body

10 inch nails in both hands and feet for you

Then I will break every bone in your body

Watching as dogs begin to rip you apart

And listening as you scream into the night

You my once feared enemy

Look how you have become nothing

All at the work of my hands

Your blood falls at my wrath

Fucker, you think you could fuck with me?

You know nothing about the world until you've seen me

Judgement falls at my command

Plagues insew the land with the wave of my hand

I am the darkness that waits to end you

My flesh is the knife that cuts your throat

Rest now for a new day comes

When the hatred starts all over again

With even more furry and haste

Listen now as I speak to you

The dead that now hangs before me

All that remains is more pain for you

For even in your death I continue to beat your body

Finding a new darkness that no one ever heard of

It is me, I am the very night itself

Tie The Knot

Shinning star, son of the morning

Fall to me now and look into my heart

See the suffering I hold

The dream I carry which will never come about

This darkness fills even the brim of the night

Calling to a world that moans in labor pains

Break the hold that it all has

Nothing can keep me back now

Going through the motions

Warming up to make it right

Practice makes perfect and this will be

Down to the smallest detail

I remember the nights I stayed up just to think

Plotting out exactly how I would go

Tieing the knot over and over again

So that when I swung from the noose I wouldn't fall

Picturing the X-rated galmour of it all

My mark left on the world would be a thud

When they cut the rope and I dropped to the floor

Scrapping the blood and brain matter off the wall

Lifting a bloodless body from the floor with slashed wrists

Look how far I've come and there is no celebration

I was once dead but now I live again

Just to put up with so much fucking bullshit

There is no applause, no fanfare of any sort

No parade to tell the world that there is life on the other side

Hell continues as my pride goes on

From the bottom to the top

Wherever I go I'm so alone

No one to share it with, and even with my love it's not there

Making myself special is so hard when you could do it

Yearning forever to have someone really hold me

And I begin to tie the knot all over again

Creating my perfect death out of my former nightmares

Tired of life, tired of living, maybe death will be like fresh air

Tell me that I am special and that I'm needed

Am I just a sinner like all the rest?

Bleeding through the sheets like a carniverious mess

Laugh at this one, for if an emotional change is formed

My life will have been worth at least one good thing

President George W. Bush Addressing The Nation, September 11th 2001

8:30 P.M. EDT

THE PRESIDENT: Good evening. Today, our fellow citizens, our way of life, our very freedom came under attack in a series of deliberate and deadly terrorist acts. The victims were in airplanes, or in their offices; secretaries, businessmen and women, military and federal workers; moms and dads, friends and neighbors. Thousands of lives were suddenly ended by evil, despicable acts of terror.

The pictures of airplanes flying into buildings, fires burning, huge structures collapsing, have filled us with disbelief, terrible sadness, and a quiet, unyielding anger. These acts of mass murder were intended to frighten our nation into chaos and retreat. But they have failed; our country is strong.

A great people has been moved to defend a great nation. Terrorist attacks can shake the foundations of our biggest buildings, but they cannot touch the foundation of America. These acts shattered steel, but they cannot dent the steel of American resolve.

America was targeted for attack because we're the brightest beacon for freedom and opportunity in the world. And no one will keep that light from shining.

Today, our nation saw evil, the very worst of human nature. And we responded with the best of America -- with the daring of our rescue workers, with the caring for strangers and neighbors who came to give blood and help in any way they could.

Immediately following the first attack, I implemented our government's emergency response plans. Our military is powerful, and it's prepared. Our emergency teams are working in New York City and Washington, D.C. to help with local rescue efforts.

Our first priority is to get help to those who have been injured, and to take every precaution to protect our citizens at home and around the world from further attacks.

The functions of our government continue without interruption. Federal agencies in Washington which had to be evacuated today are reopening for essential personnel tonight, and will be open for business tomorrow. Our financial institutions remain strong, and the American economy will be open for business, as well.

The search is underway for those who are behind these evil acts. I've directed the full resources of our intelligence and law enforcement communities to find those responsible and to bring them to justice. We will make no distinction between the terrorists who committed these acts and those who harbor them.

I appreciate so very much the members of Congress who have joined me in strongly condemning these attacks. And on behalf of the American people, I thank the many world leaders who have called to offer their condolences and assistance.

America and our friends and allies join with all those who want peace and security in the world, and we stand together to win the war against terrorism. Tonight, I ask for your prayers for all those who grieve, for the children whose worlds have been shattered, for all whose sense of safety and security has been threatened. And I pray they will be comforted by a power greater than any of us, spoken through the ages in Psalm 23: "Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are with me."

This is a day when all Americans from every walk of life unite in our resolve for justice and peace. America has stood down enemies before, and we will do so this time. None of us will ever forget this day. Yet, we go forward to defend freedom and all that is good and just in our world.

Thank you. Good night, and God bless America.

END 8:35 P.M. EDT

Dante's Inferno

Something is wrong now

We've entered this dark forrest

A land without escape

So close to both darkness and light

Yet captured by beasts that won't let us pass

Under the earth and falling fast

One level deeper for each sin called worse

There is love on the other side

But Hell looked so enticing

The fire called with words so beautiful to the ear

Swallowd by the fire we go further

Locking eyes with Lucifer we steal the eyes of Judas

Incased in ice the fallen angelic even tremble

Finding no real reason to live

Breath that brings life does not exsist in this place

For the dead kept here can neither move or speak

No flame, no height or depth, no angel or demon

Can keep the truth from coming to life

From eternal to flesh, spiritual to manhood

Believe what your eyes now see for the second death is real

Souls pile high as they turned their backs

Burning forever without escape, this is their lot

Cast in stone and refained in pain

Screaming laments of the lost drown into silence

For no one can hear of this sorrow

Not even those that produce it from their mouths

O noble poet extend to me the knowledge of this place

Give me the wisdom to stay far from here

And to lead the ones I love from entering the black gate

Send a spirit that was formed in love to guide me home

Stepping out from behind the curtain of life

Halfway markings blaze a trail on the way to hell

Lords of the damned lick their lips now

Seeing that the sinner is coming home

Let the prodical son return to his fathers arms

Now release the hold that thee have on his heart

Praise fills the temple of the great one

A white flower filled with the glowing saints exclaims

There is something that we all must do

Liberate Te Ex Inferis

Save yourself from hell