Marked By Failure

Born with a passion to be the best

The crushing reality was that I would never

Never being good enough for just me

Taken down to a pit I couldn't see

So deep and so dark that fear shook in envy

Nothing in all its years could do this

Installing a fear that went far and beyond

Past all the usual things and into the unseen

Dark things that have never seen the light of day

Dwell within this cave, set in the earth upside down

Walking over it I fell in and never hit the ground

My life was a mess and I only knew of pain

Marked by failure, they were the points of no return

When I got to one marker I just went on to the next

Bleeding through the sheets I woke up to screams

Speaking to demons and beasts like any other person

The nights were so dark and yet I could not find sleep

With my heart removed from my chest, love was out of reach

My foundation was in hatred and I loved it all

Crying myself to unfitfull sleep and then walking in a daze

My illusions were my truths and my dreams became real

Everyone had left and the real pain set in

Pulling back the covers, I laid on my American deathbed

Red white and blue I stood true even into the end

Pasted to my face was a sign to all the undead

Come and torture this one, he was had a life to live

Giving up and throwing it all away

With nothing to call my own, not even my own life

I sold it to the devil for a few moments of pure power

Surging with a strength that I had never known

For once I had control, for once I could rule them all

But those moments faded and I was back to dying

Crushed by memories that wouldn't go away

I truley was a failure, because I made myself that way

Taking the lies of others and making them mine

Putting on the things that others wanted of me

Losing myself in the darkness of my own mind

I had to go to the bottom of the sea to see who I was

That I could make a difference, that I was special

Just to be alive was evidence that I was something

Above and beyond was nothing for me anymore

Being able to wake up and see a new day

Well that was miracle enough to bring me through

Breaking the falling cycle forever I was set free

And it all started with believing I could do it

So reach down inside and pull that inner strength out

Rely only on yourself and the power to change all things

Fate has it that you live forever, so you better live right

No longer marked for failure I am above everything

Every slander and every rude remark

I will prevail, never to be held under again

So pick yourself up and get ready to change

For the day has come where we must all stand together

And tell our enemies that they will never have our lives