Black Hole

These times when the voices don't fade

I see the pain coming down my eyes

Blood and fire form to overtake my soul

As once again I am without you and it all comes back

The thoughts I hate and the pain that won't die

Thinking of the times of the past

And seeing them being relived again everyday

Over and over I must be alone

My lot in life, it must be to rot away

With no one to hold me hand

Having no one to see me through

Dying everyday inside my heart the story goes on

Winter continues as everything continues to die

I am not me without one I can't find

Sometimes I dream that you are never there

And sometimes I think that you will never come

For these are the times when I am at my worst

Living in the nightmare world of never being loved

All I get are beatings by the tongues of me

Who say that they love me and batter me again

A black hole forms over my feet and over my head

Sucking me in two directions

I am pulled apart for all time and forever

Being split is the name of my mind

Wanting so bad to die and so badly wanting to love

But who could love a monster like me,

With all my scares and impurities?

If I hate then you must hate, and I hate myself

There is no beauty for this beast

And now I fall down the hole into hell

This can be the only place for a man like me