How Do I Live?

Becoming one with my surroundings

A new ground and a new world and a new sound

The rock turns to lava and the world to ash

And the sound of lonlieness is all I can hear

It all goes down with no one around

It's all in my head and I wonder how do I live

Sitting in a tub filled with hot water and ice cubes

Nothing makes sense and I don't know why

Doing things that hurt myself but no scars remain

Invisible marks form in my head

So when I sit and wonder how I live

I think back to how everyone just seems to walk out

Gone from my life forever gone for good

Then when I think my heart will finally stop for real

Another person comes along just to keep me up

But just like all the ones before they go away

And again I'm back to square one alone again

So how do I live I ask myself

There must be something in this life I see but don't see

Something that is out there that draws me in

Just a little tunnel rat in a world of cats

Some come to help and others to kill

But no matter what they get me goin'

Which why I don't know

So how will I live after you've gone

Only God knows how I will make it on

Not knowing for myself I can't even fight anymore

So here I am half dead making a mess of everything

Take me in because it is the only way

I know how to live