Halfway There

Doubt sits in the sour parts of my soul

Causing wonder to dance inside my skull

Can someone so good even want me?

With a smile like that why even bother?

A heart of gold so pure and light

Can it mix with a darkend heart of steel,

Hardened by past failures?

I don't want this one to end like the rest

Halfway there but the uneasiness remains

Not sure how you really feel

I don't want to be the fool of the situation again

A broken heart is not something I want to happen

Once again no more for me no more falling

Please don't let me fall so far away this time

Nothing would cause my heart to leap more

Then if you would just take my hand

To look in my eyes so I would know you are always there

Joy comes and goes like the ways of the wind

But this time I want it to stay

My support my love my reason

Can you be all these things?

Trying to be an adult around you

Yet you make me return to a childhood

Where no one cared or said they loved me

How can I show you what I mean,

If I never saw how to let it out?

So be there now and let me hold on hard

Creating a place in love and time

Where our hearts beat as one

But I'm only halfway there due to undying doubt

Will you feel the same over a man like me?

The questions continue until the day I know

When you answer the yearnings of my heart

And become the eve of this adam

For now I will wait and wonder

Will you ever make a home,

In the warm spots of my heart of hardness?