Tie The Knot

Shinning star, son of the morning

Fall to me now and look into my heart

See the suffering I hold

The dream I carry which will never come about

This darkness fills even the brim of the night

Calling to a world that moans in labor pains

Break the hold that it all has

Nothing can keep me back now

Going through the motions

Warming up to make it right

Practice makes perfect and this will be

Down to the smallest detail

I remember the nights I stayed up just to think

Plotting out exactly how I would go

Tieing the knot over and over again

So that when I swung from the noose I wouldn't fall

Picturing the X-rated galmour of it all

My mark left on the world would be a thud

When they cut the rope and I dropped to the floor

Scrapping the blood and brain matter off the wall

Lifting a bloodless body from the floor with slashed wrists

Look how far I've come and there is no celebration

I was once dead but now I live again

Just to put up with so much fucking bullshit

There is no applause, no fanfare of any sort

No parade to tell the world that there is life on the other side

Hell continues as my pride goes on

From the bottom to the top

Wherever I go I'm so alone

No one to share it with, and even with my love it's not there

Making myself special is so hard when you could do it

Yearning forever to have someone really hold me

And I begin to tie the knot all over again

Creating my perfect death out of my former nightmares

Tired of life, tired of living, maybe death will be like fresh air

Tell me that I am special and that I'm needed

Am I just a sinner like all the rest?

Bleeding through the sheets like a carniverious mess

Laugh at this one, for if an emotional change is formed

My life will have been worth at least one good thing