This Is Deeper Then It Looks Like

The day of holliness has been obsolved

Watching now as the angels fall

Their burning faces light the way

Sparking memories of a time gone past

When a child was lifted to the alter

And made ready to become a sacrifice

I saw the demons, their fiery faces aglow

It is all real, there is nothing fake about this

Coming to steal the souls of the innocent

To plant lies where there was once peace

Causing war to spring up like possesed waters

Bubbling from the ground the drops become vapor

Burning with the force of eternal fires

The lake of the damned lays behind the curtain

As the holy of hollies is opened for all to see

Defiled by the likes of sinners from the future and passed

A need for blood beats inside my chest with every breath

So let it burn all the way up to the heavens

Let the black wings of the fallen cherubim decay

Creating havoc in the eyes of all those like me

Thrown into a pit where every evil thing can see

See that you are weak and lost, without thought

Taking advantage of the maimed lamb

Sending out the wolves to pick up the scraps

The darkness of a life like this is so overwhelming

Where was the throne of grace I looked for?

Pass before me Truth and show me how

How to break the hold of evil

That drowns me here in my feeble sleep

Bury for me now my limp dead body

Covered in the markings of a self proclaimed god

This is deeper then it looks like

Meanings will be dug for but will they ever be found?

Crafted out of a mold of perfection

Having that taken away made me lose my mind

Alone and afraid in the abyss of malice

Attacked by the unseen, the scars still remain

Opened up my heart and pulled the strings out

I was no man's toy, I was the ulitimate in power and demise

Dead yet alive it became all I knew

Puritians took up arms against me

Spitting on their former brother I closed my eyes to let it in

Hoping that the dark behind my eyelids would take me home

Praying that I would wake up dead

And leave all the world behind

Mercy fled and all I knew was pain

The spiritual became reality as I saw the dark come to life

Screaming my name in the middle of the night

Something wretched and horrible all at the same time

Nobody heard my cries yet the cries knew my name

One deep deep grey took me over the line

Passing into a new world where the streets aren't paved with gold

Brimstone became my only friend as I was now alone in hell

Waking up in the arms of a beast

Claws stuck deep into my flesh

But now only skin and bones

The gun was loaded and the knife sharpened

Suicide exsisted at the forefront of my mind

A world full of excuses and denile would be my grave

So I embraced it all with open arms

Hating and loving every moment of it

Proving to myself that I truely was nothing

As the pain came and stole my very soul

Now as the days grow bright and full of life

I look back and see where I came from

Walking out of the shadow of death

To be a man that has seen death, and looked him in the face

Not afraid anymore I know the outcome of life

Everything happens for a reason so this came about for one too

Installing an anger that rids the world of evil

I've come to expose the darkness and its might

The Thought Crusader is here to save the lost

All those who are like me, unaware of the life they really live