Starting From Ground Zero

Mistakes, mistakes, basing all I have off of mistakes

Going down and coming up for air there is none left

Choking on the dust the fills the blackened sky

Fire and ash are all that remain in this wasteland

I have nothing to go on anymore and nothing to gain

Only looking forward to the days when my failures become full circle

Burning down and trying to be rebuilt

But nothing works, nothing is able to hold my soul together

Beaten down into a pile of forsaken emptiness

Ground zero and below, that is where I go

Starting out in the red and then having to work for everything

My life is one big fucking mess and I can't clean it up

Misery after misery comes my way

Followed by the darkness that I once long ago dreamt of

Crying tonight for someone to hold my head up

Above this grave that I have put myself in

I've been fucking burried alive and I can't get out

They told me to put down my weapons

To come to the table of grace with a humble heart

It was all a trap and now I'm chained to my iniquity for eternity

Stolen from and left for dead on the side of the road

I have no Samaritan to come along and rescue me

Only enemies who are ever present and always near

Beneath the shadows now, I can't see me yet you see me

Alone and lost you take advantage of a hurting child

Locking me away in a cage with no light and no care

Crushing all hope that I may have had

By telling me that it wasn't my fault, well it was all fucking mine

Let me take the blame for then I will at least have something

Burdens are better then nothing and fuck I have none

So hopeless that even the wrong choice won't become mine

Nothing begets nothing and I have been choosen to carry that cross

Fucked from the beginning, I've really gone off the deep end this time