Monday, September 04, 2006

What Am I To Do?

Caught between a razor and a knifes edge
Stuck in a place where all light dies
A war for the ages and me without a battlecry
Hopeless and lost, under the weight of oppression
Where do I go when one doesn't want me,
And the other is a liar who spits the juice of vipers?
Holding out for something that will be so great
But I don't see any hope what so ever
There is no light at the end of the tunnel
Just a freight train coming my way
Full blast and ready to bring about pain
I wish to live a life that is void of misery
August burns red and September glows of cooling embers
Lost in the fires of destruction nothing remains
Must I pick up my weapon and continue to fight on?
Wishing and hoping, basing my life on an empty prayer
Where do I go when I have been everywhere?
In and out of the arms of so many
I trade them in like tissues I've blown my nose in
But above that they are the ones who've given me up
Tossing me to the wind like some garbage
No one cares to see the things that lay deep within my heart
Broken and blown to bits there is no going back
Fighting a battle I know I can never win
Only with help from another can I succeed
And that someone that I search for night and day
Continues to elude me for what seems like all eternity
Finding Eden empty except for the souls of the lifeless
The knowledge of good and evil exsists beyond my eyes
Reaching for a hand that when I touch suddenly turns dead
Fake and awake looking at me through cold pale skin
A black heart beats in an empty shell of shattered bones
What am I to do when I look for you and can't see through the pain?
Do you live or is it all just a dream that I've never even seen?
Nothing matters to anyone as long as I'm alive
Passed over like I hold a plague of such terriable proportion
Cast me in the flames now then if you feel I am so wretched
Seen to be a monster, a beast among common men
End my suffering, if you can speak it then you can make it so
A martyrs virus I carry in my bloodline
And I don't know why it is I've been marked to die
For a cause I don't understand except that I know I'm not good enough
So go and put your sundress on, fit into your sundays best
Clean up nice and enjoy the show
Now I go out to make a mockery of myself once again
Living the same mistakes over again, I am useless

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