Blue Beast

Welcome to the mind of a murderer

Masked in hated and dressed in rage

Blood covers the openings

And tears fill the cracks in his heart

My soul is locked to this fate

A life that is not worth living once seen

Crying out for someone to love me

No seen at all just passed on by

What works out for a man such as I?

Ugly by the worlds eyes and worse by my own

Self hatred in nothing compared to what I really feel

That perfect one will never come

Now as I sit locked in a cage of resentment

This beast becomes blue with woe

Sadness and pitty fill his mind

There will never be any getting back to where I came from

Just like the life I lived so long ago

No one will love me even when I try

So the anger resides and there is no antidote

Pain is the reactions to the drug of lovelessness

For the eyes of all beauty look back in disgust

Trying so hard to be just who I am

Though when I'm not I fall just the same

A perferct muder now takes place

Right inside my heart as I kill myself

Over and over again I hear the words you're not good enough

Just like all the times before

Making a sacrifice I just don't know why the fire will not build

Slottering bull after bull the blood runs wild

Yet no god has answered me, not even the God in me

Silence fills the void and no fingers lace with mine

Making the wait so much worse

Looking into the eyes of those I so wish to love

Though they will never love me why do I still try?

Calling down my own death time and again

This scene of agony is all I know before my eyes

With a bleeding soul and a decaying heart

A soul mate I will not find, not today and not tonight