Rotting Away

Sometimes this life of mine goes from nothing to something

So fast and out of sight that I never know what's gonna hit me

Broken one minute and ontop of the world the next

Where I go the next day is an unknown until I get there

Lost and alone this moment and then I am discovered and loved after

Puddles of blood form around my corpse

And the world that I know to be so painful becomes so blurry

A new world evolves around me as I pass from this life to the next

An afterlife filled with something so special that I cannot even speak

But then I wake up again to find that it was only a dream

Remembering again that I still have to hate myself

To keep the monster alive, I have to put the child in me to rest

A lot has been said about the boy and the beast in me

They have been out to play so many times in the past few days

Finding love and hate all within a matter of tumbling hours

Rotting away and growing again like nothing ever happened

Wanting so badly to be alive like I was and wishing on a star I would die

Killing my old flesh and making the sacrifice I know I need to survive

Pushing the one true thing I ever had away and yet it still remains

By my side and never saying goodbye even when I threw it all away

Loving you now and I hope that it will last forever

Where does the old story end and the new one begin?

Tell me the truth now and forever more

No more secrets, no more lies, no more hidding, no more heartache

All I want is to be with you and this time it's gonna last

The story of my life, going back and forth

Now bring forth for me the answers that I am searching for

Why is that you can love a man like me, so horrible and wretched?

Dancing within the darkest and lightest parts of my mind

All at once and all at the same time

Both worlds collide and now I must find how the reasons are the way they are

Dying and perfectly alive all within the reaches of this fadding soul of mine

So here you are and the game goes on, still lost and confussed at how and why

But I'll be here ready to play it if you are willing to do the same

Rotting away together now, let the party begin