Too Many Thoughts For Simple Words

Explaining the reasons behind the questions

Lost without words and inslaved to apathy

Empty eyes backed by empty hearts stare back

Stars fall from the heavens as I fall fast asleep

Dreaming dreams of better things

My life comes apart in my moments of joy

Releasing myself to be who I must be

Don't kill the things of me that make me real

Reality to me is something that I have just seen

That I can be great without having to stand out

Thinking of everything that I can have now

And holding them all with a humble hand

Placing my head in a vice and twisting it off

My mind can only handle more then what is normal

No more no less nothing inbetween

Fighting back my rage I think what the real me would do

Would he fight and would he steal back the moments to make it real?

Drink for me now the blood of my enemies

Those who share in my life force

The ones who passed on the essence of who I am

I took what they gave and ripped it to pieces

Taking the things I wanted and added my own

Thinking of all the times that I saw myself the mirror image of you

A murderer and an adulterer lost to the pits of hell

Now the taste in my mouth is metalic

As a bear trap has been placed inside my head

With every new thought comes a new disaster

And with all the new dreams come the dogs of terror

Being swept away under the rug for no one to see

I become the man that I want to be

Wither you like it or not

So pull harder on the strings of your martyr

I will not be your little puppet any longer

See the scars, see the pain, simple words can't say it all

Becoming the very thing that I hate I take the mask off

Now tear it down and stomp it out, the fire of your lies

Just stay the iceangel you always seemed to be

Sometimes in life you have to kill your friends to save your enemies

Turning the other check to let your family slap you

Shoving on the scorn and the shame, I will not be held down

Making my life one day at a time, let it be mine

I'll hold true to it all, even the mistakes

As I pull the trigger which the sky fall away

Making the world mine, just the way I intend it to be

Trauma overwhelmes this world of mine and I won't take it

Throwing it all away just to see the look on your face

Nevermore will you hold me as your own

Blood of my blood and flesh of my flesh

In your creation you set a hope in a dying soul

Without knowing it I woke up to a dream that I had to live

I was always going to be better then you from the beginning

Hearing the end of it one day soon when my aspirations overtake you

So hear come the scissors to cut the chord

And I won't bleed out, and nothing will be lost

But I am not a baby feeding off your lias any longer

To be a man is to be set free and today I am that man