My Christmas Wish

Feeling feelings that I only once felt

When I walked in a dream for some length of time

It's Christmas time agian but will I get what I need?

It can't be put on any list, the yearnings of the heart

Such a pure thing could never be found

Touching hands and pressings close

How do you ask a Santa Clause for that?

Can you have prefection in a person delievered?

Will Christmas morning come with you at the door?

Should I awake from my visions of sugar plumbs,

To have you standing over me?

A Christmas angel wrapped up in gold

Mixed with the love from your eyes

This is my wish, not for this season but for everyday

That you would be the one to come and heal my pain

For now all I carry are ghosts of a Christmas past

When I was all alone in the glory with everyone around

I don't need a family that day, no gifts would be okay

The only thing I could wish for is you

To make my heart skip a beat, and on Christmas with that

So now I sit and watch the snow in my mind fall

Wondering if you are even real

Now as the New Year comes will I have my wish come true?

Another circle around the sun and I grow older and more broken

One more Valentines Day spent with no grames

Easter Day brings rebirth but once again it's spent alone

Fireworks on the 4th of July only make my pain worse

School again and love is in the air just not for me

Goblins come out on Halloween and my fears come to life

A turkey in the oven and I can't take another bite through the tears

And then just like that, in a flash Christmas is back

And once again I'm without you, I don't get my Christmas wish