A Glimpse At Me

Pain I know and hurt I feel as the world locks down to attack

On my back the serpant comes to start again

Whisper in my ear the words I long to hear

Be my god one more time as I fall under your every word

A most precious blood now comes undone under my eyes

Red silk milky water forms on the most blessed

Child birth of a new kind I die inside

You ask to see my pain you ask to see me

This is a first hand look at all the people who've killed me

All of you who left after you said you never would

A word of betrayal goes a long way just to make me die

The ones I held so close and said I loved forever

Turned around and packed a puch I never saw coming

Turning around just like that to leave my side

So destroying that I still want to die after all those times

For everyone that yelled and had only harsh words

You soon will see that little boy return with a sword in hand

Ending the starters of the tears he now sheds

Those who spoke a once believed truth now await the day

The day I come and prove that they all lied

How is it that I carry the burden of love when no one loves me?

Does love just make itself known so easily but always stand alone?

Must it always be out of my reach, everyday in everyway?

A new art has begun this day as I jump to my doom

One plague on a modern world is blood spilled out of truth

Must my blood run down the road so my words will speak?

This is me you now see, the thoughts of my mind

Try to change me try to hold me try to keep the pain away

Crazy dreams become my life and hate to open my eyes

For I can't change and wake up to be a person that I love

Won't I have a savior one day like everyone else?

Answer the question of this hole in my heart this last time

Understand now that this is just what they have been looking for

A looking glass into my soul to see past the fog

Tough skin fades away as you know the true me

And the truth is pain for all time, the truth hurts, it hurts me